livinginahaze
Bluelighter
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- Mar 19, 2015
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swim usually gets high about an hour after he wakes up and basically stays high all day unless he works in which case he shows up really stoned cause his managers dont give a shit but he sobers up before his shift ends. on days he doesnt work he'll keep smoking more all day to keep his high going and usually ends up smoking a lot more than he really needs to just for the hell of it cause he has no life. swim knows that you cant OD on weed and while its probably not doing his lungs a ton of good he doesnt believe it causes cancer and compared to other drugs really isnt very bad for you. swims biggest concern is that hes killing all his braincells but even this side effect could be exaggerated he thinks. hes heard even alcohol kills more brain cells than pot but he doesnt know if that is true. if swim was using any other drug as often as hes smoking weed he'd have a very serious drug problem. but because its just weed hes really not very concerned about it most of the time. having said that swim is aware that hes addicted. when swim runs out of bud he buys more ASAP and if for some reason he cant get any that day he becomes very anxious, angry, and/or depressed. sometimes he almost has panic attacks and sleeping is a bitch when hes out. swim spends about a hundred dollars a week on weed, sometimes almost 200. recently swims brother went to rehab(he was using a lot of painkillers and amphetamines but sure he smoked weed too). swim is not addicted to any hard drugs like his brother, he is only addicted to weed. swims been thinking a lot about addictions/rehab/sobriety recently cause of his brother and hes realized that hes not in control of his own life anymore because of his pot use. but he also realizes that its not gonna kill him even though he revolves his life around smoking it and spends all his money on it. so swim wants to know what you think. does he have a drug problem? he knows weed isnt chemically addictive but he honestly doesnt have the will power to quit right now. should he maybe even consider rehab just for marijuana or is that kinda ridiculous? swim isnt one to judge anyone, he really doesnt know anymore. his father was a stoner so he was taught not to view weed as a real drug. is weed really different or no? hes gotten high off other drugs before but none of them are a problem for him, hes only addicted to weed