sparkle_jez
Ex-Bluelighter
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- Sep 18, 2003
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TJ....Although i'm only 20, I can relate amazingly to your post.
I think it was about 3 years ago at college I started to realise I would never be able to comform to the mould.
I just didn't see much point in the subjects I was studying. I could see how it was all indoctrination, and a load of stuff I didn't want to learn and didn't care about. It wasn't that I couldn't do the work, it was simply I couldn't see the point...So I prety much failed all my subjects, the only reason I didn't drop out was because of expectations and pressure from everybody...In retrospect I should've been stronger and dropped out then.
Every since, my parents , especially my father want me to get a shirt and tie office job with a financial corporation, for security. 9-5 crunching numbers simply to make your boss (who you never even see) money.....That is there version of 'success' in life......
Unfortunately, they fail to see it from my point of view. I'd honestly rather be dead then live such a fake plastic meaningless lifestyle.......Unfortunately, this is the common consensus: being a corporate robot and earning lots of money will make you happy and fulfilled.....I just cannot accept that way of life. It isn't even up for debate. I view that as a meaningless existence, like being plugged into the matrix.
My plan is to travel until i'm old.....Of course, this will always be my real home, but i'm only going to really use this country to come back and save up again then go travel somewhere else...I'll keep doing this until I get bored, or find a place i'd like to settle down, or maybe i'll meet someone..fuck knows...... Anything can happen in the 'real' world.
Living this way, I wouldn't be too unhappy if I died at 30, aslong as i'd seen as much as possible, and not denied myself.
To me this is real ambition, not 'sucking corporate dick to try to get rich' ambition.
However, most people just cannot comprehend this, or a life or any other option outside of the 9-5, the indoctrinated lifestyle we are taught to follow.......I know this is very cliche, but it is hard being truly different and non-comforming, bcos you will upset a lot of ppl (even ppl close to you) and a lot of ppl will try to thwart you. You need so much self-confidence and resolve.
It's tough!!
I think it was about 3 years ago at college I started to realise I would never be able to comform to the mould.
I just didn't see much point in the subjects I was studying. I could see how it was all indoctrination, and a load of stuff I didn't want to learn and didn't care about. It wasn't that I couldn't do the work, it was simply I couldn't see the point...So I prety much failed all my subjects, the only reason I didn't drop out was because of expectations and pressure from everybody...In retrospect I should've been stronger and dropped out then.
Every since, my parents , especially my father want me to get a shirt and tie office job with a financial corporation, for security. 9-5 crunching numbers simply to make your boss (who you never even see) money.....That is there version of 'success' in life......
Unfortunately, they fail to see it from my point of view. I'd honestly rather be dead then live such a fake plastic meaningless lifestyle.......Unfortunately, this is the common consensus: being a corporate robot and earning lots of money will make you happy and fulfilled.....I just cannot accept that way of life. It isn't even up for debate. I view that as a meaningless existence, like being plugged into the matrix.
My plan is to travel until i'm old.....Of course, this will always be my real home, but i'm only going to really use this country to come back and save up again then go travel somewhere else...I'll keep doing this until I get bored, or find a place i'd like to settle down, or maybe i'll meet someone..fuck knows...... Anything can happen in the 'real' world.
Living this way, I wouldn't be too unhappy if I died at 30, aslong as i'd seen as much as possible, and not denied myself.
To me this is real ambition, not 'sucking corporate dick to try to get rich' ambition.
However, most people just cannot comprehend this, or a life or any other option outside of the 9-5, the indoctrinated lifestyle we are taught to follow.......I know this is very cliche, but it is hard being truly different and non-comforming, bcos you will upset a lot of ppl (even ppl close to you) and a lot of ppl will try to thwart you. You need so much self-confidence and resolve.
It's tough!!