You know, I'm doing suprisingly well. I hold down a job (I work from home but it's a legit job), help take care of my father, no one knows I've even tried meth. I've gained 30 pounds while on meth (which I thought was strange, as most people lose weight I thought), I'm more productive, mood is better for the most part. Only one person (besides the folks here at Bluelight now) know of my addiction, that's my boyfriend. I'm just an average, middle aged, middle class, pre-menopausal woman with two grown sons and a granddaughter If you were to tell my family that I am addicted to meth, they would call you a liar, I know they don't suspect, because they're not the type of people who would have any problem confronting me if they even suspected. But this can't go on forever, I will get caught eventually, whether it be by my family or police. I have avoided going to the doctor, because I have been down that road, going every month for a new prescription, always in the process of changing medications or adjusting medications without ever really getting it right. Since I have ADHD I am a procrastinator from hell, putting off or conveniently forgetting important tasks, (like going to the doctor), so I was constantly missing my appointment and running out of meds. But you are right, I do need to go and get re-established with a doctor and get back on the meds. As I said, I heard Kratom was good for the withdrawal symptoms (I'll have to come off this crap at home and be as if nothing is going on and I'm not feeling like I'm dying, so family won't suspect). I've also heard CBD oil is donig wonders for withdrawing. Thanks for taking the time to respond.