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Willow and I have made up and I’m maybe going to contribute a little. When I’ve got time, as I’m working on a book now.

Just going to mention what happened to me briefly.

First, or 4-5 years ago, I was kidnapped and drugged, hypnotised, and regressed into childhood. I was then massraped (by 10-30 over 3 days) but have no recollection of it so for me it’s like it never happened.They say that’s becaus the intention was to make pornographic films of it and not for me to remember it.

They also, as I am also very strong, tried to hurt my body in various ways, like jumping up and down on it or mutilate my genitals.

I was then forcebly admitted to a psychiatric hospital/prison for 2 years under fabicated claims. This was very hard for me who needs so much freedom My bank accont was also emptied and when I came home my cat was taken.

There was over 30 people involved form both my family and the official sector. I am also treatened with prison.

I hope this will enable you to envision it clearly. No, I did not try to whore myself out and have no memory of the experience. I see this as a frace from God. They gave me a selection of Rohopnyl, Morphine, and Amal Nitrate to make it possible. Make of that what you will.

The first guy to take me was even someone I was in love with when I was 14 years old (He was so beautiful then).

I hope this has satisfied your curiosity,
 
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I misunderstand the part where you were regressed to childhood with no memory and then soecifically being raped by a range of 10 to 30 guys. Then YOU were in psych/prison like an insanity plea but falsely? For only 2 years on mass rape? But it was against you? But it didnt happen? Or what?

Or was it just regular psych and you just felt imprisoned?

It seems like your experiencing 2 (at least) parallel realities at once. Were you ever diagnosed disassociative identity disorder?

(Guys Im pretty sure this person is legit for some reason. I cant envision this clearly, because this is clearly an extreme mental problem.)

Then it was actially a satanic ritual with OVER 30 people and you remember specific family members and official sector members? You do NOT remember that which you describe in detail and so you certainly did NOT whore yourself out (which is NOT the conclusion i would have EVER thought of)... okay?

Then when you were 14 you were with a guy. He was so beautiful back then. So not now because hes much older I assume.

Were you sexually abused as a child? Are you off your meds and on a lot of drugs? Do you need some help? Do you have your workers number? Call your worker your worker is waiting for you.

(I am concerned about you)
 
Satanism is real, far more pervasive and rippled through, influential, dominating and rife in society than most people appreciate a winkle of.

I’ll just say that.

I won’t accuse you of lunacy or delusion. I know bad people actually DO insidious stuff like this, in the real world.

I am sorry you had this tragedy. But fuck, you survived it. You’re here now. You also were very fortunate it sounds to not have any conscious, stored memories of those days.

I wonder though, in such unbearably traumatic situations and experiences, repression of memories is a very real thing. Just making that point, not trying to insinuate it applies in your case.

I hope you are finding healing and peace in life. Take nothing for granted. Trauma and pain can take many forms.

In many situations, the horror movie is invisible.

Satanism is absolutely NOT a good, healthy, well meaning (towards humanity) thing in my unshakeable belief.

Don’t let “him”, the crafty sly whispering lying deceitful jealous vengeful bastard trick you otherwise.

He is not “okay”, and he does dwell throughout this 3D plain.

I’ve never read a single page of the Bible, or any single Religious text btw, just had my own spiritual encounters and observations.
 
@Ninae2 , I’m not sure this thread is really for the Lounge, people do not often interact seriously here. Would you like this moved to “The Dark Side” or perhaps “Sex, Love and Relationships?”
 
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@Ninae2 , I’m not sure this thread is really for the Lounge, people do not often interact seriously here. Would you like this moved to “The Dark Side” or perhaps “Sex, Love and Relationships?”
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SLR can take it and try and help unravel a few pieces but then pass it on to TDS if that makes more sense later.
 
Ninae2 said:
Willow and I have made up and I’m maybe going to contribute a little. When I’ve got time, as I’m working on a book now.

Just going to mention what happened to me briefly.

First, or 4-5 years ago, I was kidnapped and drugged, hypnotised, and regressed into childhood. I was then massraped (by 10-30 over 3 days) but have no recollection of it so for me it’s like it never happened.They say that’s becaus the intention was to make pornographic films of it and not for me to remember it.

They also, as I am also very strong, tried to hurt my body in various ways, like jumping up and down on it or mutilate my genitals.

I was then forcebly admitted to a psychiatric hospital/prison for 2 years under fabicated claims. This was very hard for me who needs so much freedom My bank accont was also emptied and when I came home my cat was taken.

There was over 30 people involved form both my family and the official sector. I am also treatened with prison.

I hope this will enable you to envision it clearly. No, I did not try to whore myself out and have no memory of the experience. I see this as a frace from God. They gave me a selection of Rohopnyl, Morphine, and Amal Nitrate to make it possible. Make of that what you will.

The first guy to take me was even someone I was in love with when I was 14 years old (He was so beautiful then).

I hope this has satisfied your curiosity,
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That is crazy and unimaginable, I hope you are ok now.
 
Thanks, and I'm okay now. Like I said, I didn't experience anything apart from a few clips that make me think it was real.
 
I’m okay now. It’s been years ago. I haven’t been to therapy or anything.

I still hold some grudged, but I’m naturally forgiving so that is not really a problem.

I’m mostly trying to write as much as possible, or I realised you can write for yourself rather than writing someone else rich. Or that is the case for most of us.
 
I remember @Ninae2, her original account, by name anyway, and you mean Willow as in swillow, I suppose.. ,Ninae wouldnt know me from a bar of soap as different circles, never a P&S or psychadelic groupie personally, nevertheless wish you all the best in your adventures, hope you're alright mate.

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