longtime user, never IV'ed...
hello. it has been quite a long time since i've posted in bluelight. i used to use this forum incessantly when i was in my hallucinogenic phase in high school and after... which, i have since quit doing hallucinogens altogether in late '05, due to a very weird and long story that im not going to get into right now. anyways, since then, my drugs of choice have always been opiates and weed, along with occasionally drinking, and a longtime smoker. i wrote this post a little while ago, but never posted it. regardless, im still curious to see what answers i would've gotten if i had, so i decided i am going to post it to see what kind of feedback i get, here in the heroin mega-thread. actually, was kind of worried about posting this on my regular account, so i had to create a whole new one, just to post this, since i wanted & needed this to be as anonymous as possible... so, without further ado:
"i started being a heavy oxy user, back before they reformulated, and was my absolute favorite for years... about 9-10 years to be exact. i still dream about the old oxy80's now & then.... hell, i can even remember what the beautiful drip tasted like. ah, the good ol' days... anyways, around 2009, i moved to cali for a couple years. there, i didn't really know anyone at all, and couldn't find oxy anywhere around there. i brought a bunch with me when i moved, but once i ran out, i went for 3 months before i found a way to find locals that could help me find what i was looking for. well, close to, anyway... basically, i was lucky, because i found someone who had opana 40's, which i had done a ton of research on and had always wanted to try, since it was the only comparable pharmie to oxy80's. and thats basically what i lived off of out there... during that time, near the time i was about to move back home to PA in 2011, oxy had changed their formula to deter abuse. i was pretty devastated and sad that id never again be able to enjoy them. and after moving home, opanas were practically impossible to find, even tho i was able to a few times after i had moved back home, and was still able to get the old oxy80's for a couple months before they disappeared completely. okay, this is running a lil' long so ill cut to the chase: due to this, the reformulization of oxy's and the scarcity of finding opana's, and after a really bad break-up, and becoming a hardcore alcoholic not doing the trick anymore, and missing opiates, i decided to finally get some heroin again. i had tried it before for a week straight when i was younger, when i was first doing oxy's, and was sick of roxi 30's not doing hardly anything to me... so, for the past 3 years now, going on 4, i have been using/insufflating heroin (with a couple instances of trying to get clean with methadone)...
...now, where i live isnt far from philly. which, im sure most of you know is one of the three main places on the east coast to get the best powder heroin (ny, pa, nj), depending on who you'd get it from. you know, the classic blue postage stamp bags, usually stamped with a label of some sort, and put in a similar sized small ziploc baggie, sold in "bundles", usually 14-count. so for years ive been a heroin user and i was always dead-set against needles. and i have always truly enjoyed and have been almost passionate about insufflation. i always said that id never use a needle, especially after my best friend died of an od. but for the past half a year, there have been quite a few instances when id get a bun and the stuff would be cut too much, and although itd be fine to take away my sickness/wd's, or even good enough to kinda feel nice, id still lose most of my enjoyment out of it, mostly because on top of it being weaker, the drip was always one of the biggest factors of enjoyment for me, and like a little indicator of the high lasting and of knowing it was good stuff that would make it last. but when i'd get the stuff that was cut too much, i'd blow through the buns so quickly, itd end up being doubly expensive for me since i'd have to get another bun in half the time a normal one would last me. ive cut down a lot, and taken my habit down from a bun lasting a day and a half, to now, where it can last me 3.5-4 days. but thats if its good stuff. when i end up with stuff thats cut too much, it just screws up everything and kills the schedule ive laid out for myself... especially hard when im still trying to ween myself down still.
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(***BTW, For those who are impatient to the point where this entire post is too long for you to read, the stuff that's above this cut-off line is just me explaining my 10 year history of opiate insufflation and how i graduated from opioid pills to straight-up heroin. Below gets to the main questions I am mainly posing...***)
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now, for the past couple years or so, ive had a reoccuring dislocated shoulder, so far let's say its been significantly more than 5 times already. and everytime, they used propofol to put me out, along with also giving me IV dilaudid sometimes also, for the pain (which never really did much due to my tolerance). my latest one was just a couple days ago. i still have the IV mark in the crook of my arm, where they injected me. and thus, getting used to being injected at the hospital so many times, along with recently having problems with bad batches of dope that are cut too much, ive been thinking a lot about it. so, ive been contemplating seriously about trying to IV for the first time and have been doing extensive research. the main reason being that for these instances when i get screwed with a bunk bundle of too-much-cut stuff, i am pretty sure if i tried IVing it, itd be a lot better. and plus, knowing how everyone says its a whole other level of a feeling compared to snorting... im not really sure what im trying to ask here, but first of all, is it a bad idea to try IVing with stuff you know is cut, or is it okay as long as your using a type of filter, like cotton, which is most likely what id be using? and im guessing for a first time IVer, whose been a longtime opiate user, would logically go with IVing one bag for a first time, right?? and if i were to do it soon, would it be smart to IV right next to the hospital IV mark, since i know for a fact thats where my vein is? and how much of a difference is this going to feel for me, considering the fact that im a longtime opiate/heroin user who always insufflated, compared to IVing?? does my tolerance mean that it wont be that much of a crazy difference and will just feel a little bit better, or will it be a completely different world for me? and lastly, will this affect how i feel normally when i snort, or will this completely fuck up my tolerance if i just try it once?? and i know i prolly will have a ton more questions, but ive already made this ridiculously long enough, and ill post anymore questions i have as i think of them... any and all advice and answers you guys who have experience can throw my way will be extremely appreciated and helpful, and i thank all of you in advance if any of you take the time to read and answer this post...."
