HatingThisLife
Bluelighter
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- Dec 6, 2020
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So I posted before in TDS and tried to go cold turkey twice in the last month and a half but it was just unbearable and I caved. I took a lot of the recommendations given to me on the other post I made. I have 22 klonopin which I will use sparingly, fully aware of how bad benzo detox is bc I cold turkeyed off very large daily doses of xanax 8 years ago with nothing but vitamins in a semi truck driving across the country. The person I was with kept me same and had EMT training and monitored my seizures carefully. It was hell and I hallucinated crazy stuff for 2 weeks straight. I dont really like pins the way I loved xanax and will be very careful. Any leftovers will be put away for a rainy day. Anyhow, I have 22 pins, 8 .3mg clonidine (plan to break them in 3rds and take 1/3 3xs a day for the first 4 days, so 1 a day then a 1/2 a day for 2 days and then 1/4 a day for 2 days). I have 5 750mg methocarbomal for muscle aches/spasms and will take as or if needed. I also have a good amount of cannibas. I was a daily cannibas user but quit over a year ago bc for some reason smoking weed on heroin was giving me anxiety and making my blood pressure go thru the roof. While previously trying to cold turkey it did help me sleep.
Please tell me your thoughts on my plan and also how to fight the cravings. I am done I hate living this way I want to be clean I was clean for 3 years before this relapse but have been in active addiction for the last 3 years, I want that life back, I have a great job and 2 beautiful amazing kids who deserve better and i want to give it to them!! When I got clean before I loved being sober but ocassionally got serious cravings but at that time I had moved 3 hours away from where i was from/ 6 possibly 7 hours to get something. Moving away isnt an option this time so how to I fight the cravings! Wish me luck Im excited to start fresh and zi know Im gonna make it this tine!
Please tell me your thoughts on my plan and also how to fight the cravings. I am done I hate living this way I want to be clean I was clean for 3 years before this relapse but have been in active addiction for the last 3 years, I want that life back, I have a great job and 2 beautiful amazing kids who deserve better and i want to give it to them!! When I got clean before I loved being sober but ocassionally got serious cravings but at that time I had moved 3 hours away from where i was from/ 6 possibly 7 hours to get something. Moving away isnt an option this time so how to I fight the cravings! Wish me luck Im excited to start fresh and zi know Im gonna make it this tine!