kanyeknievel
Bluelighter
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- Jul 12, 2010
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I am quite P/O that my first thread was never posted, but I guess its a good thing considering the fact that I was nodding out through most of it and I don't know if I wrote it correctly.
Basically, I live in NJ and I was clean for about half a year and I've been on suboxone, not a lot of suboxone. Then I was in England and I asked my one friend if he wanted to just do it for old time sakes.. yadad yada.. and I found someone that sold stuff for basically 1/5 the price I ever got it for, and the same or better potentency.. and it New Jersey thats really good.... so I just got how much I was going to get worth and thats been taking me on a binge, but something weird has been happening , mainly the last two days.
Yesterday I realized it, I was high and I was sorta like sad and depressed and I've never been that way before and I couldn't understand why.. and I am not clinically depressed or diagnosed as depressed at all.. I dont take anti-depressant or anything, I just felt like really emotionally sad, when I should feel just really happy because I am doing heroin... right?
I dont get it, have I been on a binge so long and havent given my body long enough of a time in between snorts of bags to let my body reproduce serotonin , dopamine, and or neurons? I am thinking thats it, I mean its not REALLY BAD, but is it just that? Do i need to possibly take a small break to give my body time to reproduce dopamine, serotonin? Should I take suboxone for a day or two and take a break so I can have my body go back to normal.. or is there supplements that I should use and buy?
I take supplements everyday, but I have been beggining to forget to to take them. I take a massive multi-vitamin and mineral, a B-Enery with Choline, and good Fish Oil, but I have ran out of fish oil and I havent taken that in a few weeks. Should I buy some 5-HTP, St Johns Wort and take those for the next few days? Since I know 5-htp is used for people that roll and take them after the night of rolling to reproduce the serotonin.
Is there anything I can take that will help reproduce dopamine as well? I just feel like something is a miss, out of the norm. The bags are normal, friends have done them. I have done this plenty of times and its never happened before.. So its not something with the bags or just me with heroin, its just this time and on this binge.
Basically, I live in NJ and I was clean for about half a year and I've been on suboxone, not a lot of suboxone. Then I was in England and I asked my one friend if he wanted to just do it for old time sakes.. yadad yada.. and I found someone that sold stuff for basically 1/5 the price I ever got it for, and the same or better potentency.. and it New Jersey thats really good.... so I just got how much I was going to get worth and thats been taking me on a binge, but something weird has been happening , mainly the last two days.
Yesterday I realized it, I was high and I was sorta like sad and depressed and I've never been that way before and I couldn't understand why.. and I am not clinically depressed or diagnosed as depressed at all.. I dont take anti-depressant or anything, I just felt like really emotionally sad, when I should feel just really happy because I am doing heroin... right?
I dont get it, have I been on a binge so long and havent given my body long enough of a time in between snorts of bags to let my body reproduce serotonin , dopamine, and or neurons? I am thinking thats it, I mean its not REALLY BAD, but is it just that? Do i need to possibly take a small break to give my body time to reproduce dopamine, serotonin? Should I take suboxone for a day or two and take a break so I can have my body go back to normal.. or is there supplements that I should use and buy?
I take supplements everyday, but I have been beggining to forget to to take them. I take a massive multi-vitamin and mineral, a B-Enery with Choline, and good Fish Oil, but I have ran out of fish oil and I havent taken that in a few weeks. Should I buy some 5-HTP, St Johns Wort and take those for the next few days? Since I know 5-htp is used for people that roll and take them after the night of rolling to reproduce the serotonin.
Is there anything I can take that will help reproduce dopamine as well? I just feel like something is a miss, out of the norm. The bags are normal, friends have done them. I have done this plenty of times and its never happened before.. So its not something with the bags or just me with heroin, its just this time and on this binge.