some people here already know exactly the point im trying to make, others dont.
i had just over a year clean from heroin, and them bam my girlfriend and i break up and what do i do? typical me looks for an escape. since plane tickets home to my parents cost about a thousand dollars this time of year, i just cant swing that right now.
so i remembered a much cheaper way to run away and its called heroin.
i wanted to forget her, and i totally did. it really helped me the first day. (yesterday)
but today before i used, during work, i really missed her. i wanted to write an emotional letter about her (for myself because i like to write) when i got home... but i picked up first. so i got home and did some lines i figured id write better.
a few lines of heroin and i dont give a single fuck anymore about her or our break up or getting back together or the letter i was going to write, nothing. i dont care wether or not she will call me i dont care about the letter i dont care about seeing her i dont care about anything in my life currently
opiates, ESPECIALLY heroin, percs and vicodins are nothing IMHO but heroin and things like that are life ruiners and soul robbers, i finally understand why.
i dont give a fuck about a single thing at all right now, and i want to. its NOT NORMAL TO NOT BE SAD and heartbroken over your first love who you've dated for 2 and half years and broke up with literally 72 hours ago.
now i am not new to this shit, ive been unfortunately using opiates on and off for exactly 6 and a half years and now i finally understand and am finally quitting for a good for a legit reason and just just because "youre not supposed to be doing heroin"
i had just over a year clean from heroin, and them bam my girlfriend and i break up and what do i do? typical me looks for an escape. since plane tickets home to my parents cost about a thousand dollars this time of year, i just cant swing that right now.
so i remembered a much cheaper way to run away and its called heroin.
i wanted to forget her, and i totally did. it really helped me the first day. (yesterday)
but today before i used, during work, i really missed her. i wanted to write an emotional letter about her (for myself because i like to write) when i got home... but i picked up first. so i got home and did some lines i figured id write better.
a few lines of heroin and i dont give a single fuck anymore about her or our break up or getting back together or the letter i was going to write, nothing. i dont care wether or not she will call me i dont care about the letter i dont care about seeing her i dont care about anything in my life currently
opiates, ESPECIALLY heroin, percs and vicodins are nothing IMHO but heroin and things like that are life ruiners and soul robbers, i finally understand why.
i dont give a fuck about a single thing at all right now, and i want to. its NOT NORMAL TO NOT BE SAD and heartbroken over your first love who you've dated for 2 and half years and broke up with literally 72 hours ago.
now i am not new to this shit, ive been unfortunately using opiates on and off for exactly 6 and a half years and now i finally understand and am finally quitting for a good for a legit reason and just just because "youre not supposed to be doing heroin"