I'm a totally straight guy or so I thought until recently. I don't know what to think or where to go but here goes.
I'm a happily married man and father if small child and not too long ago memories of sexual abuse at the hands of my biological father have resurfaced. Now at random and really inopportune times I fantasize about sucking on a large cock and getting covered in cum. I have NO attractions to men and the memories of what my dad did sicken me but the thought of a huge cock in my mouth gets me harder than seeing my wife naked. How do I get rid of this fantasy? Do I have to do it to get over it and if I do how do I find someone that none of my friends know? Or is there a better way to keep this desire from plaguing me?
Please, any advice would be welcome.
I'm a happily married man and father if small child and not too long ago memories of sexual abuse at the hands of my biological father have resurfaced. Now at random and really inopportune times I fantasize about sucking on a large cock and getting covered in cum. I have NO attractions to men and the memories of what my dad did sicken me but the thought of a huge cock in my mouth gets me harder than seeing my wife naked. How do I get rid of this fantasy? Do I have to do it to get over it and if I do how do I find someone that none of my friends know? Or is there a better way to keep this desire from plaguing me?
Please, any advice would be welcome.