I got sucked in to xanax/klon/valium AGAIN these past few months. I don't say "sucked in" as a cop out, I take fulll responsibility.
It all started when my ex girlfriend gave me 100 2mg Klonopin after not seeing her for years. I went through them in about a week.
This was about 6 weeks ago. In average, I have been taking 20mg Xanax a day for about a month. Today I planned on stopping because whenever I use xanax, I star gambling like a maniac. In the past month alone I lost $30,000 in Atlantic City. Today I took 3 mg klon and 8 5mg Valium. I felt good all day till the evening. I caved in and bought a 30 pack of the green 2mg xanax bars.
So my tolerance AGAIN is between 20-30mg of xanax a day. But this time it's been for about 6 weeks. I've had two grand mal seizures on two separate occasions when I tried to stop xanax in the past (2 separate times). The length of use was for months, and years those times.
I truly want to quit this time though. I have on hand 20 2mg xanax and 22 5mg Valium.
Could someone please offer some advice on how to get off this poison? I was getting my life back in order and no0w it's going back down hill AGAIN. Loosing that money, family issues, etc.
How should I taper down so I don't have a seizure. I've been through the most BRUTAL heroin withdrawals, but the seizures scare the FUCK out of me because I know you can die from them. I am thinking of the following:
First 5 days: 5 2mg xanax
Next few days: five 5mg valium till I have 9 left
Last 3 days: three 5mg valium.
Does this sound reasonable? I have my suboxone Dr visit tomorrow and I need to come clean to himsince my last swab test will come up dirty for xanax. This swab will obviously come up dirty too. I also met a stripper in AC yesterday who had a bag mixed with molly and coke and like a moron being high on xanax I did the bag since she left it in my suite after she left (along with her sexy panties lol).
Anyway, I'm really scared about this. Is 6 months, say even 2 months of HEAVY xanac use enough for someone prone to seizures now? The first 2 seizures was after stopping an 18 months bender of 20-40mg doses (SHOCKED i"m alive - ended up in the hospital, plus I stopped suboxone at the same time so it was double trouble). A year later, I went on another binge for about 6 months at the same high doses - ended up having two grand mal seizures, but since my last 2 weeks of binge was using high dose valium, the seizures didn't occur till a week after stopping, which scared the shit out of me.)
Anyway, is 6 weeks of high dose xanax enough to have a seizure if I try to taper down? When I went to Atlantic City the past 4 days (lost $13,000) I was getting by on 7 2mg xanax a day. So 14mg will cover me so I am comfortable throughout the day. Of course after I just picked up the 30 pack I just ate 10 about an hour ago, on top of what I took this morning (klons/valium). As you can see I can write coherently and don't even feel too high to be honest.
I am just worried as hell about having another seizure. Xanax truly is the WORST drug I have ever gotten mixed up in and I have been a heroin addict for 15 years. This shit truly is POISON with a capital P. And now people are charging ridiculous priced for bars too, which is another thing that pisses me off.
Going to the hospital is almost out of the question at this point because I lost my job due to drug use and have no insurance, plus, shockingly, my family thinks I am doing well since I am a body builder and got my body back in shape and cleaned up my OUTSIDE dramatically.
Any advice, guidance, criticism, etc, is all welcome.
Sincerely,
Scared shitless
It all started when my ex girlfriend gave me 100 2mg Klonopin after not seeing her for years. I went through them in about a week.
This was about 6 weeks ago. In average, I have been taking 20mg Xanax a day for about a month. Today I planned on stopping because whenever I use xanax, I star gambling like a maniac. In the past month alone I lost $30,000 in Atlantic City. Today I took 3 mg klon and 8 5mg Valium. I felt good all day till the evening. I caved in and bought a 30 pack of the green 2mg xanax bars.
So my tolerance AGAIN is between 20-30mg of xanax a day. But this time it's been for about 6 weeks. I've had two grand mal seizures on two separate occasions when I tried to stop xanax in the past (2 separate times). The length of use was for months, and years those times.
I truly want to quit this time though. I have on hand 20 2mg xanax and 22 5mg Valium.
Could someone please offer some advice on how to get off this poison? I was getting my life back in order and no0w it's going back down hill AGAIN. Loosing that money, family issues, etc.
How should I taper down so I don't have a seizure. I've been through the most BRUTAL heroin withdrawals, but the seizures scare the FUCK out of me because I know you can die from them. I am thinking of the following:
First 5 days: 5 2mg xanax
Next few days: five 5mg valium till I have 9 left
Last 3 days: three 5mg valium.
Does this sound reasonable? I have my suboxone Dr visit tomorrow and I need to come clean to himsince my last swab test will come up dirty for xanax. This swab will obviously come up dirty too. I also met a stripper in AC yesterday who had a bag mixed with molly and coke and like a moron being high on xanax I did the bag since she left it in my suite after she left (along with her sexy panties lol).
Anyway, I'm really scared about this. Is 6 months, say even 2 months of HEAVY xanac use enough for someone prone to seizures now? The first 2 seizures was after stopping an 18 months bender of 20-40mg doses (SHOCKED i"m alive - ended up in the hospital, plus I stopped suboxone at the same time so it was double trouble). A year later, I went on another binge for about 6 months at the same high doses - ended up having two grand mal seizures, but since my last 2 weeks of binge was using high dose valium, the seizures didn't occur till a week after stopping, which scared the shit out of me.)
Anyway, is 6 weeks of high dose xanax enough to have a seizure if I try to taper down? When I went to Atlantic City the past 4 days (lost $13,000) I was getting by on 7 2mg xanax a day. So 14mg will cover me so I am comfortable throughout the day. Of course after I just picked up the 30 pack I just ate 10 about an hour ago, on top of what I took this morning (klons/valium). As you can see I can write coherently and don't even feel too high to be honest.
I am just worried as hell about having another seizure. Xanax truly is the WORST drug I have ever gotten mixed up in and I have been a heroin addict for 15 years. This shit truly is POISON with a capital P. And now people are charging ridiculous priced for bars too, which is another thing that pisses me off.
Going to the hospital is almost out of the question at this point because I lost my job due to drug use and have no insurance, plus, shockingly, my family thinks I am doing well since I am a body builder and got my body back in shape and cleaned up my OUTSIDE dramatically.
Any advice, guidance, criticism, etc, is all welcome.
Sincerely,
Scared shitless