AddictedAnna
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- Jan 28, 2018
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Hi all, I?ve postwd before so maybe some of you will have read my story, some may not - long story short ..... im a highly functioning married mother of two addict. I?m addicted to Valium (blues,diazepam) DHC (dihydrocodeine) and zopiclone (sleeping pills). I go through phases of being able to go days taking hardly any and day taking more. I?ve had months before when I?ve not taken much. It?s been one helluva ride. But one thing?s for sure, this time it?s BAD. I tried cold turkey once and after hours of agony, finally finding myself on my bathroom floor covered in my own feasces,sick and urine, I caved and took and then I tapered and I got down to 1/2 tablets a day. I was doing ok, but whenever something bad happens in my life BAM ..... out come the pills. I?m starting to taper again as of today. I feel a little anxiety but not a lot because I?m doing it very very very Slowly. I dont know or remember what got me through it before. I guess I just managed. This time I?m not feeling as strong about it. I know I?m slowly killing myself and the last week I can?t even count how much I?ve been taking a day and every day I feel sick. And the last 3 days every time I eat I feel so sick I have to make myself sick. I woke up this morning reaching straight for my pills and just started crying. I?ve absolutely had enough of depending on those evil little things. I?m just looking for some tips and advice on how to get through this very slow taper. For example foods and supplements, drinks etc that might make me feel a little better during it. I feel like this time I?m going to need something to help me other than willpower. I read that warm milk with sugar in it can help??? God I?ve read up a lot today on what can help and remembered how helpful you all were when I spoke to you before, so thought I?d come back and ask again. Please, please help me through this. Despite the fact that I am highly functional, I know deep inside, I can feel it - it?s ruining me. It?s ruining my mind and my body. Any hints and tips I will be eternally grateful for.
Anna xxx
Anna xxx