Hello,
I am glad I am writing this. I do not socialize at all (yet I live in the most prime block in the prime city of nor cal), it is sad. I smoke a lot of weed and always knew it effected me negatively but when i quit for 3 mo until about a mo or so ago, i was surprised that the paranoia and anxiety that weed brings about didnt go away. I was always shy even as a child (before weed). I started at 15 and now 27. I have a good career path and actually starting a job next week but terribly anxious (not like an outsider can tell but x100 inside), i always act cool quiet and respectful but i am really anxious, mad, jealous inside. Sometimes I want to cry to let it out but I say that no need. I grew up in california bay area and have everything i need health looks money etc but i am always kept to myself. I have pros, clean, focused, etc but cons, picky, shy, and feel stupid sometimes. I know I can easily go out and get what i want but I don't and give excuses and home now, its saturday. i literally have no friends, always popular in school and "know" a lotttt of people just really don't know 1 of them. I never do anything other than pot, never even tried coke speed etc once, i never had a real girlfriend, im fukin going crazy to be honest. maybe i have adhd or something, ill never take an antidepressant or anything I never took a single med.
I am glad I am writing this. I do not socialize at all (yet I live in the most prime block in the prime city of nor cal), it is sad. I smoke a lot of weed and always knew it effected me negatively but when i quit for 3 mo until about a mo or so ago, i was surprised that the paranoia and anxiety that weed brings about didnt go away. I was always shy even as a child (before weed). I started at 15 and now 27. I have a good career path and actually starting a job next week but terribly anxious (not like an outsider can tell but x100 inside), i always act cool quiet and respectful but i am really anxious, mad, jealous inside. Sometimes I want to cry to let it out but I say that no need. I grew up in california bay area and have everything i need health looks money etc but i am always kept to myself. I have pros, clean, focused, etc but cons, picky, shy, and feel stupid sometimes. I know I can easily go out and get what i want but I don't and give excuses and home now, its saturday. i literally have no friends, always popular in school and "know" a lotttt of people just really don't know 1 of them. I never do anything other than pot, never even tried coke speed etc once, i never had a real girlfriend, im fukin going crazy to be honest. maybe i have adhd or something, ill never take an antidepressant or anything I never took a single med.
