Hello there

[VisitorsFromMars]

I work at mcdonalds, I am poor, so I like inhaling the whipped cream cans. I do not know where abouts I can find weed because I am an absolute looser who does nothing with his life but watch porn and I get extremely nervous when I talk to girls. I am 30 years old, still a virgin, I look like shaggy because I still haven't got my hair cut. I am pretty much an absolute loner and a looser. Everyday I just want that next hit of nitrous oxide. I have to sneakily steal cans and I do it while I'm there too. I am an absolute looser, lacking in motivation to do anything and I am finding it hard to mantain my job and I just feel as though I am going to get into an argument with the other workers there because of it. I talk in an extremely deep voice and can hardly string sentences together. I do not talk to all the other workers. When I am standing up serving, which I only do some times because I am terrified and have to sit at the back sometimes while I stand there because my anxienty is really that bad. I could go on for a long time about how I'm such a looser, but this is already starting to upset me right now.


I do not know why we are all here, on this earth, while I'm just an absolute looser, well maybe I do deep down. Maybe I could turn to a life of crime to become a heroin addict, because I deeply feel that heroin would be my Hero. On the other hand, my family life would be affected by my heroin use, I may go to prison, and then mummy would come to visit me and I would sit there and cry, I cry like a Monkey, by the way. All I would think about while if I went to prison would be how I wish I got an education, how I wish I didn't just be a useless lazy nobody all that time ago. How I wish I stood up to the bullies and been less suspectible to them. I don't blame my parents for being an absolute looser, they tried to help, and I just sat there playing minecraft and seperated myself from them. Now all I do is inhale nitrous oxide, I am not going to commit suicide, I am going to change, I am going to choose life. I am going to sign up to help children and sort my life out. This is my story.

 

[kleinerkiffer]

I think this would be more suited for the Dark side or Sober Living.

Nitrous oxide abuse can lead to some serious health problems and you should start supplementing vitamin b12

I really hope that all goes well for you man!

 

[VisitorsFromMars]

I think this would be more suited for the Dark side or Sober Living.

Nitrous oxide abuse can lead to some serious health problems and you should start supplementing vitamin b12

I really hope that all goes well for you man!

Thanks man! This is a hard time for me, but I'm working to come out better.

 

[Ziiirp]

You're not a loser just because you don't fit into this antisocial society, my friend.

I would advise you to seek an authentic asian meditation temple in your area and pursue that path before you choose hard drugs.

 

[Znegative]

You're not a loser just because you don't fit into this antisocial society, my friend.

I would advise you to seek an authentic asian meditation temple in your area and pursue that path before you choose hard drugs.

Yeah, fuck that dude, be proud to be a loser. I am.

Anyway OD->TDS

 

[deos68]

i'm a loser as well...i think
i don't go out, i don't socialize
i struggle to form a coherent sentence when i do try and go out to socialize

i wasn't always like this back in my younger days, had plenty of friend and was more out going
fast forward to today i'm 29 gonna turn 30 this year and i feel like a loser at times as well

i get highly anxious which the cause is still unknown(highly suspect ts due to my daily drinking) and i get anxiety attacks not so much panic anymore
but because of that everyone seemed to stay away from me or when i do hang out with people all they do is question my anxiety and try to diagnose me

i always feel empty inside im sure its from the depression i fell into
but i always think to myself i mean....it could be worse right?