Mental Health Hallucinations

[llama112]

I've been getting so far a week of hallucinations due to sleep deprivation. I get these regularly but usually just 2-3 days and then I sleep and all is back to normal. But it was Sunday to Wednesday for me. I got sleep Wednesday night (like 7 hours, normal amount). Thursday didn't sleep. Friday slept like 1 hr. Saturday night slept like 1 hr.
I'm hearing voices, I'm seeing things, it's more than usual. Unfortunately, I now live on my own, so if I do something stupid then no one will know unless people care enough to check up on me.
It's too hard to read much but my ex said there were no meds to help this. I've maxed out most of the sleeping meds anyway. Nothing, even a week's worth of no sleep.
This is my second week out of school so that's probably contributing to the factor but I have no clue what to do. I just want to be able to exist normally. Not worry about blacking out and whatnot.
Having someone around DOES help however the guy I'm "exclusively" with is allergic to cats and the guy previous to that was living with his aunt and not allowed to go out at night or something silly.

I've maxed out my benzo usage so that doesn't help anymore
Ideas?

(Sorry if I've misspelled things, kinda hard to do much right now if it includes seeing)

 

[Mysterie]

can you see a doctor or sleep specialist?

what medications/drugs do you take?

is it your mind racing at night which makes sleep difficult?
have you tried relaxation techniques like yoga/guided meditation to help calm and relax your mind?

are there life circumstances which are contributing to increased levels of stress?

have you had bipolar type episodes before? i've had sleep interference with mania, seroquel might have helped me to sleep then, and olanzapine would have helped slow the manic build up and also helped with sleep i think.

 

[yompf]

If you can't find anything that works for you , I would go the holistic route . I would find a Shaman practitioner in your area .
If you are seeing and hearing things , you may benefit from a simple clearing .
They cost money though lol
Some charge more then others.
I'm not trying to get all spiritual and creepy on you , idk if u are religious, it doesn't matter much anyway, but sleep dep is serious and can open you up to certain energies that will in turn make it even harder to sleep and function.
You will be amazed at what this route can do for you .
I wish I was rich I would totally pay for it for you . I wouldn't pay more then $200. I guess it depends on the area you are in .
If you have money to spare maybe try kava kava.
For fucks sake see a doctor too
This is dangerous what you are describing . Can you let us know how you are doing ?

 

[llama112]

I finally slept six hours today!!!! I know that's not going to solve everything but it's a start. Unfortunately I only got to sleep from 50 mg of diazepam.
Honestly half the stuff that happens in my life, I don't know if it's serious enough to see a doctor (and Canada, so free health care). It's just they toss you around even if it's serious problem. I've seen doctors and sleep specialists but they are just focused on the quality of my sleep. Who cares about the quality if I'm not actually asleep??!!?? I just feel like that's a secondary problem.
I take pregabalin daily for anxiety. Alprazolam or whatever benzos when needed. I have anxiety and depression and an undiagnosed mood issue which they think is likely BPD but aren't sure. Seroquel HAS helped me in the past with sleeping. But once you take enough of that and you're still awake, you feel really weird. But YES I get the mania modes and then I can't sleep at all like a huge adrenaline rush but it shouldn't last that long. I've obviously tried the "basic" stuff too like melatonin, dipenhydramine, some other various things I read about a while ago, etc.

My mind races at night. Huge life changes right now but huge life changes have also been happening since January. I can never stop thinking. There is so much to worry about. I have tried yoga and meditation but should try again I think. Going through divorce (which I'm very happy about by the way, but it's still a big change), just graduated school and am looking for internship/job which is difficult as well as trying to work on projects to boost up my portfolio, and issues with "casual relationships" (the newest guy I'm seeing who wants to be exclusive sometimes just doesn't talk to me for days) and the only person I feel like who cares about me is the other guy I was/am seeing ACTUALLY cares but conservative family issues that don't let him out of the house too much (also neither guy believes in medication which is fine for them but IDK what I'd do without it sometimes I'm so reliant on it).

I'm not spiritual and do have doubts about the holistic route HOWEVER I believe that it is worth a try. I think some are BS but some are useful and, even if they don't have all the answers, they actually spend time listening to you, unlike doctors who just prescribe a med you don't want and ask you to leave. Being jobless, I'm not exactly rich, but if there is a chance something will help, I don't care.

Oh yeah and of course it makes me paranoid too. Like I'll obsess over people outside my building talking about me or that the cats are in the wrong spot or something silly.

Well, at least today will be a good day. Until bedtime

 

[yompf]

Sounds like a nightmare.
I'm glad you got to sleep though. Idk the time in Canada ATM but its about 10 pm here where I am .
I get bad anxiety and racing obsessive thoughts and worrying myself into a panic attack , trying to solve all my problems at once and feeling horrible about myself for something I said or did so I'm filled with self loath and shame all at the same time , just staring at the wall the or the inside of my blanket in a semi dark room,when I should be asleep .......
After about a night of that my reality is jeopardized .
Screw doctors I just self medicate.
anyway , so what all are you seeing and hearing?

 

[herbavore]

llama, you've got some good news tucked in all the stressful stuff you are going through. Congratulations on your graduation and I think its great that you have the motivation to keep improving for internships. What kind of internships are you looking for?

Also, congrats on getting out of an unhealthy relationship.

I'm glad you finally got some sleep--that is soooo important when dealing with any mental issue.