Of course you'll have a "better" time on it. I'm 3-4 yrs removed from dope habit n still ask my substance abuse counselor " well just one time" because I want to feel it again, I want to feel "good" . We always are going to want more of a good thing, that's just how it is. The addict in you wants 1 more time as is the same w/ me. I will bargain & try to justify it anyway I can. My fucked up addict brain thinks it will be ok if I just get some 30's or 80's instead of dope. But the reality is that after those 30's or 80's I'm gonna want more of them, if not dope. And once I do them my thought process is going to be diff than it is now. Most likely will be thinking well I did it a few days ago or last week or w.e & I'm fine & it was good so why not? It's every addicts dream to be able to use n not go out of control w/ it. But if we could do that, we wouldn't be addicts now would we? GL buddy I feel for you , I think the same way n feel trapped for years since I stopped dope. Be greater than what we suffer.