This totally sucks what happened, but try to take this in a positive light. You were on a really destructive path to the point of chronically drinking and using despite liver failure weren’t you? This is your break, to get away from a certain death. If this didn’t happen you’d be continuing as you were.
Ive been through a lot of rehab as well. About 13 months total in rehab since 2011, til 2015. Never have been back (save 2 days detoxing to prepare and I bailed) although many times I have definitely been a prime candidate. Other the that, I also have the endless outpatient, the hospitals, the detoxes (good 3 dozen times in detox easy), psych holds, counseling, whatever.
I’m in my worst meth addiction ever today. You could say that it looks like I probably have nothing to learn, but there’s no way you would think that right? Flip that logic on yourself. If you’re still here and want the help to stop, realize you don’t know shit about quitting because you never have, not in the long run. There’s always more to learn. There’s always new phases of life to live.
Keep in touch here on BL. I’m rooting for you.
-Alex