fixedatzero
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My doctor prescribed me 5mg of Adderall amphetamine salts (IR) and said to take 2 daily with a count of 60. I have been on this medication before to treat fatigue and sleepiness from untreatable depression and I abused it. I do remember being at a very high dosage last time, sometimes taking up to 90mg a day and struggling with quitting but I managed to do so because I believed the withdrawal/crash wasn't worth the relief the meds gave me from my depression. I remember the crashes being more intense than the long-term withdrawal, which was basically just sleeping all day, feeling depressed but eventually I made it out.
About two years go by (now) and I've fallen back into a dark place and I fought with the idea about asking my doctor to prescribe it for me again because my depression never actually improved and I felt like I was at the end of my rope. The doctor put me back on the 5mg to be taken twice a day. I thought I could possibly control it this time (stupid!) but I've been taking these 5mg pills like they were candy. I just had it filled yesterday, 60 ct. I have 24 left. So I guess you could say I took around 18 5mg pills a day so far. So 90mg in a full day. It's truly unbelieveable how I let this happen again. I'm not entirely sure if I'm safe because I'm currently overweight with blood pressure that's not been known to spike.
My last pill had to be a few hours ago and I feel sick, my muscles ache, my jaw aches from grinding, I'm nauseous, I don't want to eat, skin is burning, seeing things move that aren't moving, the anxiety is horrendous, I feel paranoid, I feel angry, I feel worthless, and I do remember this part. I'm trying to keep my cool this time around but the only thing that makes it stop is taking 10mg more and if I remember correctly, that stopped working after a while. The relief would not return and I would just feel tolerance.
I have a drug called Inderal (Propranolol) which is for treating blood pressure. Is it possible these could aid me? Is there anything in particular I should eat to keep my energy? I've been staying hydrated. I have access to my daily klonopin (2mg a day) but I'm not sure the best time to take it would be. Please help me through this again so I can actually seek addiction help!
tl;dr:
- Prescribed 5mg Adderall IR twice a day
- Already went through 36 pills in 2 days
- Worried about dropping dead! What is the likelyhood? Do I belong in ER? My heart isn't currently beating rapidly but possibly could?
- Wondering if Inderal (Propranolol) beta-blocker could help some crash/withdrawal symptoms
- Any tips to get me through this would be very much appreciated
Thank you
About two years go by (now) and I've fallen back into a dark place and I fought with the idea about asking my doctor to prescribe it for me again because my depression never actually improved and I felt like I was at the end of my rope. The doctor put me back on the 5mg to be taken twice a day. I thought I could possibly control it this time (stupid!) but I've been taking these 5mg pills like they were candy. I just had it filled yesterday, 60 ct. I have 24 left. So I guess you could say I took around 18 5mg pills a day so far. So 90mg in a full day. It's truly unbelieveable how I let this happen again. I'm not entirely sure if I'm safe because I'm currently overweight with blood pressure that's not been known to spike.
My last pill had to be a few hours ago and I feel sick, my muscles ache, my jaw aches from grinding, I'm nauseous, I don't want to eat, skin is burning, seeing things move that aren't moving, the anxiety is horrendous, I feel paranoid, I feel angry, I feel worthless, and I do remember this part. I'm trying to keep my cool this time around but the only thing that makes it stop is taking 10mg more and if I remember correctly, that stopped working after a while. The relief would not return and I would just feel tolerance.
I have a drug called Inderal (Propranolol) which is for treating blood pressure. Is it possible these could aid me? Is there anything in particular I should eat to keep my energy? I've been staying hydrated. I have access to my daily klonopin (2mg a day) but I'm not sure the best time to take it would be. Please help me through this again so I can actually seek addiction help!
tl;dr:
- Prescribed 5mg Adderall IR twice a day
- Already went through 36 pills in 2 days
- Worried about dropping dead! What is the likelyhood? Do I belong in ER? My heart isn't currently beating rapidly but possibly could?
- Wondering if Inderal (Propranolol) beta-blocker could help some crash/withdrawal symptoms
- Any tips to get me through this would be very much appreciated
Thank you