Soulgasm
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 13, 2009
- Messages
- 452
Hello beautiful people.
Lately, I've come to the realization that I need to take it easy for a while and become active in something that that will fascinate me and maybe remove me from this toxic city atmosphere. I'd really like to find some sort of trainee program that will take on someone with minimal experience and huge amounts of motivation. I am from the USA but am not opposed to something international (in fact, I would love that!) I grew up in an international environment and would blend quite well.
I have my bachelors in a subject a cannot see my self ever utilizing to a significant degree now and I feel my degree came about as a combination of family pressure and my boundless self medication to get through a course load that I, in fact, hated in hopes that my following career would somehow be different (it wouldn't, stupid, I know). I am at a loss to rectify this situation. I had a lot of unaddressed psychological issues growing up which led me to always do what was expected of me rather than following my passions. This, in turn led me down a nasty route of constantly neutralizing my disdain with the life I was living with whatever substance was most convenient and eventually left me with a poly-drug problem (which I have hidden from almost everyone in my life, always being smart about it). I just feel like I have wasted so much of my valuable life doing things that don't interest me. I'm sure everyone see's this to a certain degree in hindsight but, damn, it feels like I really fucked myself over here.
I have been working jobs I hate, eventually had to move back in with my parents at the ripe age of 25 in a city I hate, and am generally freaking the fuck out over my future now. I have been stupid and wasteful with the gifts that the universe has bestowed upon me, never really following my passions or what I loved (but those passions are so hard to find!). What I know is I do not want to spend another day chasing after something that does not draw my passion. I am presently unemployed and don't have a huge amount of money in the bank.
All rambling aside, I need to get away from this situation. I have assessed many options but come to you people in hopes that some ideas can be tossed around.
I thought about joining the peace corps for awhile. The large amount of waiting time to get in and some other entrance factors seems disconcerting but I would love to hear some experience if anyone has any.
I have a buddy that teaches English in China and loves it. However, I am far from fluent in any foreign languages and I don't know if China is the right place for me.
I would love to find a low key job in some sparsely populated beach town. I have some issues I need to work out (I've seen a psychiatrist,psychologist, etc. but it's more of a self-journey at this point) and it seems like this would be an ideal place for it. I love to surf and to wake up early and do yoga on the beach.
Finally, I'd love to get into some sort of trainee/development/rotational program to help me advance into a formidable skill set.
I really don't want to join the army or anything of that nature but I'm very open to physical labor.
So, what say you, is there any way for a perplexed quarter life man with dwindling funds and lost identity to get out there, tackle his demons, and find a rewarding career path? This might seem like escapism. Maybe it is.
My interests include:
Renewable Energy
Environmentalism
Helping those in Need
Eastern Philosophy
Music Culture!
I can save up some funds and work a shitty job to afford this life change but I just want to make sure it is something that I will truly enjoy and stick with.
Any input is appreciated. God Bless.
Lately, I've come to the realization that I need to take it easy for a while and become active in something that that will fascinate me and maybe remove me from this toxic city atmosphere. I'd really like to find some sort of trainee program that will take on someone with minimal experience and huge amounts of motivation. I am from the USA but am not opposed to something international (in fact, I would love that!) I grew up in an international environment and would blend quite well.
I have my bachelors in a subject a cannot see my self ever utilizing to a significant degree now and I feel my degree came about as a combination of family pressure and my boundless self medication to get through a course load that I, in fact, hated in hopes that my following career would somehow be different (it wouldn't, stupid, I know). I am at a loss to rectify this situation. I had a lot of unaddressed psychological issues growing up which led me to always do what was expected of me rather than following my passions. This, in turn led me down a nasty route of constantly neutralizing my disdain with the life I was living with whatever substance was most convenient and eventually left me with a poly-drug problem (which I have hidden from almost everyone in my life, always being smart about it). I just feel like I have wasted so much of my valuable life doing things that don't interest me. I'm sure everyone see's this to a certain degree in hindsight but, damn, it feels like I really fucked myself over here.
I have been working jobs I hate, eventually had to move back in with my parents at the ripe age of 25 in a city I hate, and am generally freaking the fuck out over my future now. I have been stupid and wasteful with the gifts that the universe has bestowed upon me, never really following my passions or what I loved (but those passions are so hard to find!). What I know is I do not want to spend another day chasing after something that does not draw my passion. I am presently unemployed and don't have a huge amount of money in the bank.
All rambling aside, I need to get away from this situation. I have assessed many options but come to you people in hopes that some ideas can be tossed around.
I thought about joining the peace corps for awhile. The large amount of waiting time to get in and some other entrance factors seems disconcerting but I would love to hear some experience if anyone has any.
I have a buddy that teaches English in China and loves it. However, I am far from fluent in any foreign languages and I don't know if China is the right place for me.
I would love to find a low key job in some sparsely populated beach town. I have some issues I need to work out (I've seen a psychiatrist,psychologist, etc. but it's more of a self-journey at this point) and it seems like this would be an ideal place for it. I love to surf and to wake up early and do yoga on the beach.
Finally, I'd love to get into some sort of trainee/development/rotational program to help me advance into a formidable skill set.
I really don't want to join the army or anything of that nature but I'm very open to physical labor.
So, what say you, is there any way for a perplexed quarter life man with dwindling funds and lost identity to get out there, tackle his demons, and find a rewarding career path? This might seem like escapism. Maybe it is.
My interests include:
Renewable Energy
Environmentalism
Helping those in Need
Eastern Philosophy
Music Culture!
I can save up some funds and work a shitty job to afford this life change but I just want to make sure it is something that I will truly enjoy and stick with.
Any input is appreciated. God Bless.