i believe the police in my area or the fbi or cia or whatever, i've heard it called "big brother" in rap music might try to get civilians to spy on drug users or possibly mentally insane people interacting with them to see how they respond. like right after i ordered lsd in the mail for the first time i went for a walk and didn't even take any of the acid yet and this asian lady walked by me with a stereotypical accent for an asian lady and was like "OH OBAMA WHAT A NIGGER", and they had a bunch of people i met as a child drive by me so i would remember what they looked like to remember my past better. i'm pretty sure this was an attempt to get me to remember paintings and music that i was shown in some type of MK ultra like program as a child. i wouldn't een have thought this was government activity if they didn't put me in the psychward with a bunch of people that i always met as a child, like some older people and some people my age like a girl that was like 12 or 13 when i was like 5 or 7, she had schizophrenia too and i was apart of some group that my parents knew about (showing me the paintings and stuff) they let me meet her when she was an early teen so i would remember he as an adult i'm pretty sure. i'm not certain but i thik people that are stuck in mental hopsitals they might take to the temporary hopsitals to meet people sometime and they had some type of secret file to let me meet this girl. i never said anything to her and it could've been my imagination, but i was on this old message board with people saying they showed me paintings as a child when i was a teen and they had this other girl on the site that was a little older and you could tell at that age what she would look like as an adult. when i was a teen and she was in her her early twenties she was telling me how she visited a bakery that my parents owned and they had me give her a sports card that was made with me on them from a basketball camp that i went to. they were like novelty cards they sold to remember you went to the camp. i specifically remember the card and that she mentioned it, i remember her at the bakery as well... she said she was supposed to show me the card if she remembered the paintings and my music, she said she wasn't confident enough to remember what the paintings were and she liked the first band that iw as in, so she wanted to tell me hoping it would help me to remember the art... weird story, i forgot to write about the girl with the basketball card during my first thread about how i thought i was some type of MK ultra "victim". i believe they gave me drugs as a kid and forced me to watch in depth movies of how a certain type of paintings are made and they showed me music tunings and stuff and it brain washed me to be able to do the stuff as an adult... i heard there are other people that have experienced it too. it was a message board off of a site called "make out club.com" which "suicide girls" was originally attatched to. not just girls with tattoos like they are doing now, but they used to have tribal scarification on some site, not sure if it was owned by the same owners, but my exgirlfriend was on the site and they got her to have some pretty crazy tribal scarring tattoos. i actually have a picture i might post of her arm and how deep the cut or burn or whatever they did to her was, it's some chinese letters or something and her skin protrudes like 1/3 to a 1/4th of an inch out of her skin like a wealt, supposedly they gave her "a good one" and it looks artistic (kind of). they let me meet this other girl at my drug dealers house who had one of the scars and supposedly the girl that was carving them didn't like her so she just carved a pretty not artistic cuts in her arm.. i really might make a thread about i am REALLY RAMBLING and i feel like the more i write makes less and less sense, but they definitely let me meet a lot of people as a kid and then they were all on this website when i was an adult saying they had faith in me to do art because i was telling my friend that the secret government had a lazer beam on me and they can scan an entire area and know enough to know when a bird is going to chirp. i thought this because i heard a beep in the ground and a crow flew right over it right after the beep and started sqwuaking. the people on the website were saying this was a sign i had "bird shocker" and they thought i had it when i was a baby. bird shocker means that my mind will get birds to chirp with what they are thinking. i was telling my friend about the problem and that was when everyone on the site decided to tell me about my childchood. i actually ask my parents about it and they say it never happened, but i remember as a kid that people threatened him not to tell me in front of me for whatever reason, but it was okay for other people to let me remember. pretty weird. i actually feel bad for my parents, but i think with all the stuff about me suspecting they were giving me drugs as a child, i don't think they want to let that secret out.
so yeah. that's my sstory very short. like i said i want to make a thread with all the music of my first band and stuff i've recorded over the years that i think they've showed me. i have a you tube with the stuff on it, but there is a lot of controversial stuff on the you tube and i don't want to show it to this site, so i've been thinking about uploading some of the just video stuff to vimeo in case anybody here is interested.
like i'm pretty sure that in certain parts of the world, esspecially different parts of america, they do do stuff to survey people. and they might take notes on people and watch them, but that all goes on pretty subtle and there's not really much they are going to do to a person. like even when i was ordering lsd in the mail they mostly left me alone, other than a bunch of times i went on the bus, the guy that used to be a cop whose voice i heard as a child would say "fruity pebbles" when i got on the bus. "uh yeah. fruity pebbles" in his cop voice... i think this was supposed to be something like MK ultra code words. he wanted me to remember his voice to continue my insanity.
this is just like one TL,DR paragraph. i'm sorry if people had a hard time reading it. i tried my best and will probably compile a thread trying to expain it again. maybe if i post some of the music people will maybe question that the music i made wasn't my own doing but something that i was tought... i really feel like most gang stalked individuals are going to be like genuises like Bill gates or Elon musk (heard it's debatable he's a genius), but i'm pretty sure they give them scientific ideas when they are children and babies so they remember the stuff when they are adults. i think the child mind is like a sponge that is ready to soak up information if brain washed the right way. this is what i get from my experience. i've createad so much art and guitar tunings that i believe was shown to me that i don't see how a person couldn't learn science as an adult by being brainwashed as a child.
So although i think theey survey and watch people, i don't think they really mess with people unless they are looking for something from them... i mean, i actually believe what landrew was writing is true about prostitues because i'm pretty sure the secret goverments actually control or at least know about gangs... i had two seperate friends tell me when i was VERY UNDER THE INFLUENCE that all the weed i got was from a gang and they actually have hookers and stuff and i'm supporting that. they told me some kid was going to be on the news for a home invasion and they told me both the guys that were responsible for the home invasions name and that i would remember this when i saw the news story... i wish i could've posted on bluelight like ten years ago "hey watch out of this news story to come up" like the people did for me, but like i said, they told me when i was very messed up on drugs and i couldn't even conscoiusly remember, the stuff just stuck in the back of my mind... like i'm pretty sure a lot of tattoos my friends or dealers get are gang related too.
and i'll leave this with "i could just be a total schizphrenic" but maybe some one even if they don't want to post has heard about similar things being done.
