Hello all
This is my first post here, I hope this is the right category to start my thread. I have been taking Gabapentin recreationally for about a year now. I was getting them from a friend but with my chronic back pain, I went to the Dr and was easily prescribed the drug. I usually take 3 300mg capsules and they take 2 hours to fully kick in. It gives me a similar high to smoking weed, I get euphoric, and sometimes nod off in my chair. I have been doing this 1-2 times a week, but some weeks I feel like it causes severe depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. My problem is I want to keep taking it, I feel addicted. I feel so good when I'm on it, and my anxiety is diminished. But it seems like once a month or so the 3-4 days after taking it, I feel extremely depressed. I have so many more of these pills it will be so hard to not take them. I would like to hear others experiences and thoughts on my situation. This drug seemed to truly help my anxiety but now I feel like it's taken control of me. Please give me your advice.
This is my first post here, I hope this is the right category to start my thread. I have been taking Gabapentin recreationally for about a year now. I was getting them from a friend but with my chronic back pain, I went to the Dr and was easily prescribed the drug. I usually take 3 300mg capsules and they take 2 hours to fully kick in. It gives me a similar high to smoking weed, I get euphoric, and sometimes nod off in my chair. I have been doing this 1-2 times a week, but some weeks I feel like it causes severe depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. My problem is I want to keep taking it, I feel addicted. I feel so good when I'm on it, and my anxiety is diminished. But it seems like once a month or so the 3-4 days after taking it, I feel extremely depressed. I have so many more of these pills it will be so hard to not take them. I would like to hear others experiences and thoughts on my situation. This drug seemed to truly help my anxiety but now I feel like it's taken control of me. Please give me your advice.