Hezman94
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Been taking seventy mg a day just to get coled up owe hundred pound out for severede depression. Then end up going through 100mg in eight hours cos I snorted two and tbh waste of oxy.i need at least 30 40mg to feel good for six hours and I donbget enough. I'm severely depressed I binge on opiates on payday heroin and methadone permanently fucked my tolerance imo used to take methadone every weekend but not had it in two weeks and not had heroin either. But after taking seventy mg for a week I go fuck it up by being greedy.
I got addiction assessment in a week then it be three weeks till I get a script I can't wait that long why can't I get a script now
They expect u to take heroin and I don't want too but I feel awful everyday I can't wait till Tuesday bto get some cbd oil and even that don't help loads makes it more bearable.
I'm also extremely mentally addicted to cannabis if I don't have a smoke I get withdrawal mainly mental but still a head fuck.
I'm gonna be moving away as everyone takes cocaine round here and u can get it on lay.
I feel good now cos I've taken forty mg oxycontin crushed. But in six hours I'll needtl tommorows dose I only get seventy mg which is a high dose but still I can pop that in one . I got some tramadols strangely three of them keep me from withdrawing no good for my back pain.
And that leads me to methadone's analgesia effects I wouldn't be getting take homes till I prove not using and I don't think I be able to handle waiting 24hoirs. I could try Subutex? I'm so lconfused and I just want to be well I hate this life I'm not even a score everyday heroin addict and I can afford to be. I do binge on stuff tho.
I'd go back on morphine but I had zero energy but it lasts longer than xloxy.
Fentanyl patches we're good but they'd fall off and only lasted two days not three and sometimes I'd get a massive spike as in nodding out then in withdrawal later on
Sorry for long post.. my mental health is very bad cos I can't get stable .
I'll be severely depressed tommorow and I cannot take it anymore
I got addiction assessment in a week then it be three weeks till I get a script I can't wait that long why can't I get a script now
They expect u to take heroin and I don't want too but I feel awful everyday I can't wait till Tuesday bto get some cbd oil and even that don't help loads makes it more bearable.
I'm also extremely mentally addicted to cannabis if I don't have a smoke I get withdrawal mainly mental but still a head fuck.
I'm gonna be moving away as everyone takes cocaine round here and u can get it on lay.
I feel good now cos I've taken forty mg oxycontin crushed. But in six hours I'll needtl tommorows dose I only get seventy mg which is a high dose but still I can pop that in one . I got some tramadols strangely three of them keep me from withdrawing no good for my back pain.
And that leads me to methadone's analgesia effects I wouldn't be getting take homes till I prove not using and I don't think I be able to handle waiting 24hoirs. I could try Subutex? I'm so lconfused and I just want to be well I hate this life I'm not even a score everyday heroin addict and I can afford to be. I do binge on stuff tho.
I'd go back on morphine but I had zero energy but it lasts longer than xloxy.
Fentanyl patches we're good but they'd fall off and only lasted two days not three and sometimes I'd get a massive spike as in nodding out then in withdrawal later on
Sorry for long post.. my mental health is very bad cos I can't get stable .
I'll be severely depressed tommorow and I cannot take it anymore