I've been through Hell and put my family through it as well trying to get my pain under control. The pain is a real and deafening roar and while I've had one bout of for real "no med" w/d, the pain emanating through my body during that is the memory that stays with me. The w/d was cakewalk in comparison to the pain I went through. Not that w/d was a great thing. Had I not been in pain, I'd probably remember the w/d more.
Anyway, here's the end: I have been a bit skeptical about this Kratom I keep hearing about, but nonetheless I have jumped in feet first and am getting my delivery of it today. I've been on opiates daily for nearly 8 years after attempting all natural treatment for my back pain except acupuncture treatments. As I said, 13 years and a permanent back problem. I was thrown from a vehicle at 65 mph. Only survivor, near death, in the ICU and coma as a result of the accident. I used to think "I'm lucky to have survived" but is it lucky to start pain management at 28yo and live in pain except when on organ damaging medicine? I went 6 years before noticing a daily interference from pain. I've only been on the opiates for 8 of the 13 years. Only because I couldn't afford it, acupuncture wasn't an option. This jump to Kratom is not by choice. I left my hubby of 17 years in the West and moved back to the country of the Mid-West where I grew up to provide the life they need and deserve. Dad used my pain medicine as a reason for his alcoholism and called me an addict 2 or 3 times a week to keep his alcohol. The only thing that's kept me down multiple times after moving is my pain. Now, doc won't refill the script (he did the 1st time I asked but not again) and I still am unemployed and uninsured.
Can this really be my salvation? I need people that have gone through this, not uninformed or textbook responses from those who've never dealt with this giving me garbage bags full of hypothetical reasoning.
I've gone without before and found that I don't "kick" like most people because I only cry out in pain rather than just wanting opiates. I don't care what stops the pain. I just want it to stop.
What am I up against and how do I know it's regular pain and w/d the Kratom can help me with and something that simply has to be dealt with? Can I expect good fortune coming down the mountain? Or should I expect to fall in the descent and nothing can be done for me? Like I said, please only people that have dealt with this, whether from H, oxy, methadone, subs and morphine since that's all equivalent to my medicine.
Anyway, here's the end: I have been a bit skeptical about this Kratom I keep hearing about, but nonetheless I have jumped in feet first and am getting my delivery of it today. I've been on opiates daily for nearly 8 years after attempting all natural treatment for my back pain except acupuncture treatments. As I said, 13 years and a permanent back problem. I was thrown from a vehicle at 65 mph. Only survivor, near death, in the ICU and coma as a result of the accident. I used to think "I'm lucky to have survived" but is it lucky to start pain management at 28yo and live in pain except when on organ damaging medicine? I went 6 years before noticing a daily interference from pain. I've only been on the opiates for 8 of the 13 years. Only because I couldn't afford it, acupuncture wasn't an option. This jump to Kratom is not by choice. I left my hubby of 17 years in the West and moved back to the country of the Mid-West where I grew up to provide the life they need and deserve. Dad used my pain medicine as a reason for his alcoholism and called me an addict 2 or 3 times a week to keep his alcohol. The only thing that's kept me down multiple times after moving is my pain. Now, doc won't refill the script (he did the 1st time I asked but not again) and I still am unemployed and uninsured.
Can this really be my salvation? I need people that have gone through this, not uninformed or textbook responses from those who've never dealt with this giving me garbage bags full of hypothetical reasoning.
I've gone without before and found that I don't "kick" like most people because I only cry out in pain rather than just wanting opiates. I don't care what stops the pain. I just want it to stop.
What am I up against and how do I know it's regular pain and w/d the Kratom can help me with and something that simply has to be dealt with? Can I expect good fortune coming down the mountain? Or should I expect to fall in the descent and nothing can be done for me? Like I said, please only people that have dealt with this, whether from H, oxy, methadone, subs and morphine since that's all equivalent to my medicine.
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