Word man, with this corona lockdown Is even harder, i keep smoking crack AND Score morphine IV every once in a while but I'm hanging in there...If you want to stay clean long term and you have to replace your drug lifestyle with something entirely different.
If you quit the drugs but keep doing the same shit, you'll be high again in no time.
Early recovery is a bitch no matter what though.
Oh man, I'm not trying to underscore your problems but that sounds heavenly.Word man, with this corona lockdown Is even harder, i keep smoking crack AND Score morphine IV every once in a while but I'm hanging in there...
Yeah man, i do sometimes take for granted the basic things in life. I've never ever in my life havent had a plate of food to eat or like u said Water, a place to sleep, internet , tv., Etc. It's just that drugs have literally worsen what i think Is a mental illness that i already had developed. With my 10+year polysubstance abuse of ecstasy, opiates, cocaine, some antipsychs, LSD AND other shit i can't remember ATM. I dont feel normal even if i have long stints of sobriety, it's really tough man. Ahhhweell, whst u said Is right aswell, i do feel lonely, that's y i like morphine so much, it erases my thoughts and makes me feel this artificial love. Oh well, at least I'm not smoking crack 4grams errday AND Banging 100mg of med morphine ampoules everyday for months on END like 90%of2019. I'm kinda Sober ATM, I've Been clean for a month with only 2 slip ups. Eventually I'll get there, ithink.Oh man, I'm not trying to underscore your problems but that sounds heavenly.
I live in a mega-city with high covid-19 infections, lockdown, can't get good drugs, half the time the grocery stores are fucking empty as shit... like motherfucking Cuba or some bullshit.
It sounds like you must have decent food/water access. Be thankful for the small things and take care of yourself.
With that said I'm not saying "don't use"... I would probably buckle under the stress. I had to move to this side of the nation to get away from heroin use. So ... I can't say I wouldn't be doing what you are (minus crack, I don't like cocaine/crack at all)... but yeah. Go figure.
Try to love yourself. Make friends. Talk to people with your 6 feet of personal space. Work on art. Are you feeling lonely, is that triggering you? I can relate to that.
I laughed out loud because that's just so awesome.I've never ever in my life havent had a plate of food to eat or like u said Water, a place to sleep, internet , tv., Etc.
Ty for the encouraging words, ID hug if i could man. Tytyty so muchI laughed out loud because that's just so awesome.
I have gone without... um... all of those before. Not all at once I think. But life is rough for a lot of us in different ways.
I am not 100% sober, I am drinking beer and smoking weed/dabbing weed extracts aka "shatter". So yeah. Go me.
It's not a race it's a process and you're wanting to get clean that's the first huge step for many people, whether or not they ever get clean... so you're half way there already.
Try to find something ELSE to do when you would NORMALLY use. That is a HUGE thing. You have to fill "the void" so to speak. I don't like the "SOMETHING'S MISSING"... emo emptiness model but it makes sense because there is a literal void in learned behavior of "what one would otherwise do..."
yeah no problemTy for the encouraging words, ID hug if i could man. Tytyty so much
I remember when I first quit I’d fantasize constantly about sticking a needle in my arm.
I actually went years and years without thinking about it all much but the past few years life circumstances have made me depressed.
To be honest I don’t think it ever fully goes away, but it does get manageable.
I use to fantasize a Lot just looking at my veins when i was in rehab like 5 years ago. To me Is not really the needle fixation that fucks me, it's More about the anxiety that i feel living life Sober again... i have some PTSD aswell i think from all the trouble i hsve Now stacked up from neglecting myself for years on END ( financial, health, relationship, family problems). Just thinking about all that shit makes me anxious as fuck. I need More Time clean aswell, I've Been Banging 100mg pure morphine almost daily AND I'm just 1 month clean. One day at a Time i think...^^ This. I quit drugs fairly easily each time I get into them. The actual substance that is, and I don't ever really crave that once it's out of my system. But if I ever think of a needle I get racing heart, sweats and really compulsive feelings for registering and rushing. If I'd never IV'd I'd have been done with drugs completely after regular experimentation decades ago. I can't watch movies or TV that show IV use without getting totall freaked out - even after years clean.