"I puked the first time, I guess Opioids aren't for me
"
Never say never. I'm not proud of this behavior, as it was pretty reckless of me and I very easily could have killed my friend, but it's relevant to this situation. This kid would drive me every Saturday to my clinic to pick up my weekly script of Methadone and my dosage was 120mg per day at this point. After 3 or so trips, he finally said "what is this stuff exactly". Well, I said, "take a sip". Anyone who is familiar with Methadone understands that "a sip" from a 120mg take-home bottle could easily be lethal to a naive individual.
He spent over 36 hours in bed purging everything from his stomach and he scratched his face so badly from the itches that he basically had open sores by the time everything was said and done. I sat with him the whole time after I realized what I had done. I was drunk when I told him that and when I sobered up I realized that I was potentially going to become a murder if he didn't get medical attention. He kept refusing and he wasn't blue, he was breathing over 5 times per minute and he could engage me in conversation if stimulated.
After this event, he said, "I'm never doing that again and I don't understand why anybody would like it". I had to relent and say, "yea you're probably right". 3 days later he was asking me for more. Pretty much, after he recovered, had one day of clarity to think about the situation, his body and mind drove him back to me looking for more. You have to guess that this type of thing is purely biological. He didn't "have fun" or anything close to it, but he
wanted more.
Be honest with yourself. That's all I can say about getting into this sort of thing.