Hello I will try to keep it super brief. Broke my back in the army got hooked on prescribed opiates took me years to get off them but after a 3 year battle I finally did.
I was clean for 3 years and all was well in my life until recently when I fell off a ladder and hurt my back really bad again. I have this super tight knot on my mid left back and I just can't get rid of it. I tried massage, acupuncture, muscle relaxers you name it I've done it. Since I use to be an addict for prescribed opiates my doctor naturally and understandably was against vicodin even for a limited time like a week to try and get through it as I worked on fixing my back.
I couldn't stand the pain anymore one night after crying for 2 hours and not having slept in days due to discomfort. So a friend who is a very casual meth user (maybe a few times a month) offered me some as it's all he had. I said I'd never touch the stuff but after researching it online a bit it didn't seem that bad when you quit physically compared to opiate withdrawal. And the physical was always my road block the mental has always been easy for me.
So I tried it. I'm anti needle/smoking etc. So I googled a safe dose for first timers to ingest orally 0.05 grams (50mg). It gave me energy and didn't completely nullify the pain but knocked it way way down to a super acceptable level. I didn't get a rush of energy and wasn't super talkative or "tweeking" I was my normal self but comfortable.
I did this dose for 2 days and now I've stopped. It's been 36 hours since my last use. My back still hurts but it's slowly becoming less and less. My main complaints currently are obvious fatigue, discomfort, lack of appetite and when I force myself to eat it makes me feel cautious and upset stomach.
Could I have poisoned myself somehow because I feel rotten inside? It was glass and my friend claimed great quality never had issues on it. Could i be experiencing withdrawal after only having used 50mg once a day orally for 2 days?
How soon can I expect to feel better generally speaking if so after only having used that dose twice after being clean 3 years?
I have a doctor appointment for the knot in my back in 1 day and I'm worried they will want urine and blood to rule out any other possible causes and find it in my system and like deny me care or something.
I messed up, lesson learned, I'm ashamed of myself but I did it and it's done and now I'm trying to move forward and make better decisions.
P.S. sorry for typos, typing from my phone
I was clean for 3 years and all was well in my life until recently when I fell off a ladder and hurt my back really bad again. I have this super tight knot on my mid left back and I just can't get rid of it. I tried massage, acupuncture, muscle relaxers you name it I've done it. Since I use to be an addict for prescribed opiates my doctor naturally and understandably was against vicodin even for a limited time like a week to try and get through it as I worked on fixing my back.
I couldn't stand the pain anymore one night after crying for 2 hours and not having slept in days due to discomfort. So a friend who is a very casual meth user (maybe a few times a month) offered me some as it's all he had. I said I'd never touch the stuff but after researching it online a bit it didn't seem that bad when you quit physically compared to opiate withdrawal. And the physical was always my road block the mental has always been easy for me.
So I tried it. I'm anti needle/smoking etc. So I googled a safe dose for first timers to ingest orally 0.05 grams (50mg). It gave me energy and didn't completely nullify the pain but knocked it way way down to a super acceptable level. I didn't get a rush of energy and wasn't super talkative or "tweeking" I was my normal self but comfortable.
I did this dose for 2 days and now I've stopped. It's been 36 hours since my last use. My back still hurts but it's slowly becoming less and less. My main complaints currently are obvious fatigue, discomfort, lack of appetite and when I force myself to eat it makes me feel cautious and upset stomach.
Could I have poisoned myself somehow because I feel rotten inside? It was glass and my friend claimed great quality never had issues on it. Could i be experiencing withdrawal after only having used 50mg once a day orally for 2 days?
How soon can I expect to feel better generally speaking if so after only having used that dose twice after being clean 3 years?
I have a doctor appointment for the knot in my back in 1 day and I'm worried they will want urine and blood to rule out any other possible causes and find it in my system and like deny me care or something.
I messed up, lesson learned, I'm ashamed of myself but I did it and it's done and now I'm trying to move forward and make better decisions.
P.S. sorry for typos, typing from my phone