pillman1224
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so ill keep the drug talk to a minimum cause it is involved in the questions i have about relationships. right now my problem is with the ladies. i got back into pot over a month ago and im loosing connects/interest in opiates see they made me productive but this has happened before i was doing more than i should. i should also mention i could go back to opis if needed the wds and tolerance keep me from over doing it. all leave it at that.
im a 19 y/o male im not the greatest looking guy but i got over that and realized its all about confidence as my friends told me. not horrible but i dont really know how to rate guys maybe a 6 thats a shot in the dark. my first gf was in 6th grade. only kissed few times lasted 4 months. second and third were mostly when i was using heavy in the 7th and 8th grade (pot,benzos,opiates,alcohol order differed daily also soom good rolls). i dont want to count these as i was nodded the fuck out when i asked the last 2 out.
how do i do about this sober? i attend college part time with no legit job as of right now but the more stoned i get the more i want a job so thats good opiates just make me productive period. but when im in a relationship i hardly if any use the last girl and i just straight partied with but were exclusive and did some sober stuff its just i was making to much at the time for an eighth grader too put in the bank. so my money went to 'investment weed" that i smoked, pills maybe oxy as i had a 200mg a day habit with a not gonna say price but cheap asf source, and my the rest went to buying my girl gifts.
sexually- farthest bj but answer this as im a virgin and all sexual experience again happened 5 years ago. no intercourse yet but i wouldnt mind getting some more experience before finding a relationship, think party atmosphere. (if yer in it for that community college sucks very few parties and limited access and most girls are taken. but i might be able to get in as i have friends on the sports teams).
question- please read above if ya can and help a fellow bler out i tried last semester but she was deciding on leaving her fiance but got back together even though i was "i lapdog to her" a friend thats a girl told me that so it must be true FUCK IT I GOT FRIENDZONED she got back with him. still talk. this happened yesterday a girl 22 blonde i would say attractive and a 2 year clean h addict. shes in my ethics class and i couldnt see if she had a current bf on Facebook so when we went for a smoke i shifted the convo and found out she has a guy. i question whether or not i had a chance and with proper confidence how do i ask out a girl sober ive been told im too nice. i dont have it in me too treat a girl like shit. and pls leave the be yourself stuff everyone is telling me that. sorry for the long post had alot to say.
edit- i have never had a girl say that she loved me i dont know if that is pertinent information
im a 19 y/o male im not the greatest looking guy but i got over that and realized its all about confidence as my friends told me. not horrible but i dont really know how to rate guys maybe a 6 thats a shot in the dark. my first gf was in 6th grade. only kissed few times lasted 4 months. second and third were mostly when i was using heavy in the 7th and 8th grade (pot,benzos,opiates,alcohol order differed daily also soom good rolls). i dont want to count these as i was nodded the fuck out when i asked the last 2 out.
how do i do about this sober? i attend college part time with no legit job as of right now but the more stoned i get the more i want a job so thats good opiates just make me productive period. but when im in a relationship i hardly if any use the last girl and i just straight partied with but were exclusive and did some sober stuff its just i was making to much at the time for an eighth grader too put in the bank. so my money went to 'investment weed" that i smoked, pills maybe oxy as i had a 200mg a day habit with a not gonna say price but cheap asf source, and my the rest went to buying my girl gifts.
sexually- farthest bj but answer this as im a virgin and all sexual experience again happened 5 years ago. no intercourse yet but i wouldnt mind getting some more experience before finding a relationship, think party atmosphere. (if yer in it for that community college sucks very few parties and limited access and most girls are taken. but i might be able to get in as i have friends on the sports teams).
question- please read above if ya can and help a fellow bler out i tried last semester but she was deciding on leaving her fiance but got back together even though i was "i lapdog to her" a friend thats a girl told me that so it must be true FUCK IT I GOT FRIENDZONED she got back with him. still talk. this happened yesterday a girl 22 blonde i would say attractive and a 2 year clean h addict. shes in my ethics class and i couldnt see if she had a current bf on Facebook so when we went for a smoke i shifted the convo and found out she has a guy. i question whether or not i had a chance and with proper confidence how do i ask out a girl sober ive been told im too nice. i dont have it in me too treat a girl like shit. and pls leave the be yourself stuff everyone is telling me that. sorry for the long post had alot to say.
edit- i have never had a girl say that she loved me i dont know if that is pertinent information
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