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Earlier this year I tried MDMA for the first time, at Global Gathering. Although I can tell even from no experience it wasn't the cleanest roll.
Before the weekend started, I had a cold, so I wasn't feeling great health-wise to start with.
We arrived at the festival, set our tents up, and relaxed in the sun. I was with a whole group of people I don't know very well, so I was casually swigging some Southern Comfort out of my hip flask, as I'm not the greatest at socialising in general and am a little bit shy, and getting a little bit drunk helped me come out of my shell a bit. I realise now, drinking alcohol probably wouldn't have helped with the MDMA trip later on, but nevermind.
We headed into the main arena at about 5pm, and I think that's about when I started on the MDMA. I had 1g of powder to myself for the weekend (I didn't really know how much was needed, but my girlfriend was there to guide me who has done MDMA lots of times before), although as you read through this report, you'll probably agree that in the end, I don't think the powder was that great in terms of MDMA purity. I definitely didn't consume 1g of pure MDMA over the weekend... that's just how much of the powder there was.
(One of the girls in our camp didn't really feel the same batch of MDMA on the first night, but met up with her brother on the second night, tried some of his, and said she was absolutely buzzing and had one of the best nights of her life. That just backs up that the MDMA powder I had wasn't as strong).
So I took my first bomb, waited about 30-45 minutes, didn't really feel anything. So I swallowed a bit more. Unfortunately I can't remember how many bombs I had, or how many mg of MDMA was in each one...
Then we headed back to the tents, and as I was stood around waiting for my girlfriend to get some things out of the tent, I started to come up.
I noticed I wasn't standing still, mostly rocking from left to right with my hips. And then without even really acknowledging myself doing it, I heaved 3 times. I didn't feel nauseous, and it didn't feel like I was going to be sick at all (no vomit rose up out of my stomach at all) - I'm pretty sure I just heaved with a big grin on my face looking around the campsite.
That's when I noticed I could actually feel it. My body felt good, buzzing, and I felt really happy and a bit loved up. That's when we headed back into the main arena (although I can't remember the walk there at all).
Walking around, I felt great. Going through the list of 'subjective effects' on Wikipedia, the main things that stood out to me:
- A strong sense of inner peace and self-acceptance
- Diminished fear, anxiety, and insecurity
- Improved self-confidence
----- When sober, I tend to be quite self concious, especially at a place like that; my first electronic music festival, + my obvious "metalhead" appearance with hair down to my ass etc. I'm a bit shy, not great at socialising, not a huge amount of confidence... but when on the MDMA, I was absolutely 100% happy with who I am and how I looked. I wasn't worried about what people might think or say, because if they did say anything, I felt so comfortable that I would've taken it light heartedly, found it funny, and probably wanted to make friends with them. Even though I was under the influence of drugs, so of course I wasn't how I truly am... I felt MYSELF. Rather than shyness preventing me from being my normal self in a public situation/new environment, I felt like the real me. Inner peace. It was beautiful.
After about 30-60 minutes or so though, the buzzing feeling throughout my body wore off (must've been about 7pm by now). Though I still felt happy, confident, enjoyed doing some kind of minimal "dancing" (must've looked baaaaad) when waiting alone near a stage for my girlfriend to come back from the toilets etc.
It was during the next few hours I noticed some visual effects. I kept seeing people as somebody totally different. For example... I saw a guy wearing a green t-shirt, and I absolutely thought it was somebody I know, just because I saw that person in a green t-shirt a few weeks before. I saw a girl wearing clothes that, in my opinion, was the sort of thing one of the girls in our camp would wear, and for a few seconds I totally thought it was her, even though their hair was different. The strangest one was when I looked at a guys face as we were heading out of one the stages, and I absolutely 100% thought it was somebody from my school a few years back - I looked again, that's definitely him. Then we walked past him, and I looked at his face one last time from right in front of him... he looked nothing like the guy I know. Same hair colour but that's about it. Has anybody else had effects like that?
I also had the eye wiggles every now and again, although I never really thought about it until I read someone's post on here mentioning it.
I can't remember the rest of the evening very well - we probably just moved around from stage to stage. I think I had begun to "settle in" to the MDMA, either that or it was wearing off.
Then it got to probably around 11pm, and we headed in to see Skrillex. I took some more MDMA because I wanted to feel like I did earlier again... but I didn't.
I didn't feel bad at all... but definitely not as great as earlier. I definitely enjoyed the show, and was definitely wow'd by the atmosphere. I was doing my "minimal movement dancing" again. But I was sweating like mad! I didn't necessarily feel hot, but the sweat was pouring out of my face. (I was drinking water though).
Then me and my girlfriend headed back to camp. It was a dark night, and I had my arm round her. As we were walking, there were a few moments where I totally thought the people walking past us in the opposite direction had accidentally SMASHED her in the face with their elbows. I'd quickly look up, at her, at the people, confused to see nobody was acting weird, and that she was actually fine. Nothing had happened. It happened about three times on that 10 minute walk. She told me she kept thinking that had happened to me too. Anybody else experienced something like that?
Day 2. Woke up feeling alright, but again, my shyness/self conciousness was back. We walked around the arena, I felt awkward, so when we went back to the tents for a bit again, I started drinking more alcohol, which I carried on for most of the day, wanting to enjoy myself more.
Once it got to the evening, I had probably drunk quite a lot. But I stopped for a few hours until night time. Then tried some more MDMA again. A bomb or two of the powder, and after not feeling that, also one of the pills we bought off some dude selling at the festival (no idea how strong they were - I do think they had SOME mdma in though). (After lurking on this forum a bit, I realise trying MDMA 2 days in a row isn't a great idea. I assumed it was like alcohol or something - once you're sober you can start "from scratch", not realising serotonin levels take time to recover).
What do you do for a festival that is more than one day? - Do you save your MDMA for one night only? Or have some of you tried doing it 2 days in a row? What about if you want to be under the influence of MDMA from like, 2pm-3am? Have any of you managed to have a trip that lasts that long? Does having boosters at certain intervals actually "top you up", or is it just a bad idea to keep adding to the overall amount of MDMA taken in on session full stop? Tell me some of your "MDMA at festivals" experiences/advice.
We went to the DnB stage, waiting for the artists who were set to start in about an hour; who I was probably most looking forward to that weekend.
But I decided to go outside and sit down. Then go back to the tents. Then went to sleep. I totally missed the artists I was most looking forward to seeing, because I felt a bit weird/ill. I can't remember how I felt exactly, but for me to miss those artists... damn! I think I was being a bit conscientious of myself though. I had no experience of MDMA, it's one of "those big scary class A drugs!!!", and I didn't want to really screw myself. My gf had more MDMA because she wasn't feeling it yet, and didn't want to waste it/keep it at home etc.
I slept heavily. Apparently my gf and a few of the people from our camp were playing cards in the porch of our tent most of the night while I was right there sleeping. I had no idea lol. Woke up feeling a bit groggy, although I blamed it on my cold.
Got some food, drove home (me in the passenger seat), smoked a joint, felt a lot better.
But then later that night + the next day or two... I felt quite sick. If I moved I felt really nauseous. I wasn't sure if I had picked something up at the festival, or if it was the MDMA. I figure now it was probably the comedown, or perhaps the MDMA powder not being very pure and not agreeing with my body? Or simply that I'd had too much? (Even if the powder wasn't great quality. I wish I could've known the exact amount of pure MDMA that I had, and if that pill actually had anything in it).
Now I've read up a lot more about it though, and now I've had a little bit of experience, I'm confident my next time will be much better/safer.
Also sorry for the wrong title format. Didn't notice that until after posting :S
Earlier this year I tried MDMA for the first time, at Global Gathering. Although I can tell even from no experience it wasn't the cleanest roll.
Before the weekend started, I had a cold, so I wasn't feeling great health-wise to start with.
We arrived at the festival, set our tents up, and relaxed in the sun. I was with a whole group of people I don't know very well, so I was casually swigging some Southern Comfort out of my hip flask, as I'm not the greatest at socialising in general and am a little bit shy, and getting a little bit drunk helped me come out of my shell a bit. I realise now, drinking alcohol probably wouldn't have helped with the MDMA trip later on, but nevermind.
We headed into the main arena at about 5pm, and I think that's about when I started on the MDMA. I had 1g of powder to myself for the weekend (I didn't really know how much was needed, but my girlfriend was there to guide me who has done MDMA lots of times before), although as you read through this report, you'll probably agree that in the end, I don't think the powder was that great in terms of MDMA purity. I definitely didn't consume 1g of pure MDMA over the weekend... that's just how much of the powder there was.
(One of the girls in our camp didn't really feel the same batch of MDMA on the first night, but met up with her brother on the second night, tried some of his, and said she was absolutely buzzing and had one of the best nights of her life. That just backs up that the MDMA powder I had wasn't as strong).
So I took my first bomb, waited about 30-45 minutes, didn't really feel anything. So I swallowed a bit more. Unfortunately I can't remember how many bombs I had, or how many mg of MDMA was in each one...
Then we headed back to the tents, and as I was stood around waiting for my girlfriend to get some things out of the tent, I started to come up.
I noticed I wasn't standing still, mostly rocking from left to right with my hips. And then without even really acknowledging myself doing it, I heaved 3 times. I didn't feel nauseous, and it didn't feel like I was going to be sick at all (no vomit rose up out of my stomach at all) - I'm pretty sure I just heaved with a big grin on my face looking around the campsite.
That's when I noticed I could actually feel it. My body felt good, buzzing, and I felt really happy and a bit loved up. That's when we headed back into the main arena (although I can't remember the walk there at all).
Walking around, I felt great. Going through the list of 'subjective effects' on Wikipedia, the main things that stood out to me:
- A strong sense of inner peace and self-acceptance
- Diminished fear, anxiety, and insecurity
- Improved self-confidence
----- When sober, I tend to be quite self concious, especially at a place like that; my first electronic music festival, + my obvious "metalhead" appearance with hair down to my ass etc. I'm a bit shy, not great at socialising, not a huge amount of confidence... but when on the MDMA, I was absolutely 100% happy with who I am and how I looked. I wasn't worried about what people might think or say, because if they did say anything, I felt so comfortable that I would've taken it light heartedly, found it funny, and probably wanted to make friends with them. Even though I was under the influence of drugs, so of course I wasn't how I truly am... I felt MYSELF. Rather than shyness preventing me from being my normal self in a public situation/new environment, I felt like the real me. Inner peace. It was beautiful.
After about 30-60 minutes or so though, the buzzing feeling throughout my body wore off (must've been about 7pm by now). Though I still felt happy, confident, enjoyed doing some kind of minimal "dancing" (must've looked baaaaad) when waiting alone near a stage for my girlfriend to come back from the toilets etc.
It was during the next few hours I noticed some visual effects. I kept seeing people as somebody totally different. For example... I saw a guy wearing a green t-shirt, and I absolutely thought it was somebody I know, just because I saw that person in a green t-shirt a few weeks before. I saw a girl wearing clothes that, in my opinion, was the sort of thing one of the girls in our camp would wear, and for a few seconds I totally thought it was her, even though their hair was different. The strangest one was when I looked at a guys face as we were heading out of one the stages, and I absolutely 100% thought it was somebody from my school a few years back - I looked again, that's definitely him. Then we walked past him, and I looked at his face one last time from right in front of him... he looked nothing like the guy I know. Same hair colour but that's about it. Has anybody else had effects like that?
I also had the eye wiggles every now and again, although I never really thought about it until I read someone's post on here mentioning it.
I can't remember the rest of the evening very well - we probably just moved around from stage to stage. I think I had begun to "settle in" to the MDMA, either that or it was wearing off.
Then it got to probably around 11pm, and we headed in to see Skrillex. I took some more MDMA because I wanted to feel like I did earlier again... but I didn't.
I didn't feel bad at all... but definitely not as great as earlier. I definitely enjoyed the show, and was definitely wow'd by the atmosphere. I was doing my "minimal movement dancing" again. But I was sweating like mad! I didn't necessarily feel hot, but the sweat was pouring out of my face. (I was drinking water though).
Then me and my girlfriend headed back to camp. It was a dark night, and I had my arm round her. As we were walking, there were a few moments where I totally thought the people walking past us in the opposite direction had accidentally SMASHED her in the face with their elbows. I'd quickly look up, at her, at the people, confused to see nobody was acting weird, and that she was actually fine. Nothing had happened. It happened about three times on that 10 minute walk. She told me she kept thinking that had happened to me too. Anybody else experienced something like that?
Day 2. Woke up feeling alright, but again, my shyness/self conciousness was back. We walked around the arena, I felt awkward, so when we went back to the tents for a bit again, I started drinking more alcohol, which I carried on for most of the day, wanting to enjoy myself more.
Once it got to the evening, I had probably drunk quite a lot. But I stopped for a few hours until night time. Then tried some more MDMA again. A bomb or two of the powder, and after not feeling that, also one of the pills we bought off some dude selling at the festival (no idea how strong they were - I do think they had SOME mdma in though). (After lurking on this forum a bit, I realise trying MDMA 2 days in a row isn't a great idea. I assumed it was like alcohol or something - once you're sober you can start "from scratch", not realising serotonin levels take time to recover).
What do you do for a festival that is more than one day? - Do you save your MDMA for one night only? Or have some of you tried doing it 2 days in a row? What about if you want to be under the influence of MDMA from like, 2pm-3am? Have any of you managed to have a trip that lasts that long? Does having boosters at certain intervals actually "top you up", or is it just a bad idea to keep adding to the overall amount of MDMA taken in on session full stop? Tell me some of your "MDMA at festivals" experiences/advice.
We went to the DnB stage, waiting for the artists who were set to start in about an hour; who I was probably most looking forward to that weekend.
But I decided to go outside and sit down. Then go back to the tents. Then went to sleep. I totally missed the artists I was most looking forward to seeing, because I felt a bit weird/ill. I can't remember how I felt exactly, but for me to miss those artists... damn! I think I was being a bit conscientious of myself though. I had no experience of MDMA, it's one of "those big scary class A drugs!!!", and I didn't want to really screw myself. My gf had more MDMA because she wasn't feeling it yet, and didn't want to waste it/keep it at home etc.
I slept heavily. Apparently my gf and a few of the people from our camp were playing cards in the porch of our tent most of the night while I was right there sleeping. I had no idea lol. Woke up feeling a bit groggy, although I blamed it on my cold.
Got some food, drove home (me in the passenger seat), smoked a joint, felt a lot better.
But then later that night + the next day or two... I felt quite sick. If I moved I felt really nauseous. I wasn't sure if I had picked something up at the festival, or if it was the MDMA. I figure now it was probably the comedown, or perhaps the MDMA powder not being very pure and not agreeing with my body? Or simply that I'd had too much? (Even if the powder wasn't great quality. I wish I could've known the exact amount of pure MDMA that I had, and if that pill actually had anything in it).
Now I've read up a lot more about it though, and now I've had a little bit of experience, I'm confident my next time will be much better/safer.
Also sorry for the wrong title format. Didn't notice that until after posting :S
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