RunRiverRun
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 31, 2018
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As I evaluate my short history with drug use, i find it obvious that it is pretty hard for me to prevent psychological addiction.
4 months back, I was so far away from any drugs and even alcohol.
Right now i smoke 3 to 4 grams of weed nearly everyday, got my hands on 200ug of LSD 2 times ( in the same week actualy ) and rolled some E once.
A week ago i watched a documentary about H when i was pretty high on some indica and since then i have this depressing feel of paranoia and guilt at the same time.
Since then i have read 6 books on heroin and countless articles. There probably is no video on youtube about heroin that i haven't watched. I have raised this irrepressible curiosity about drugs and it, at the same time, disturbs me a lot because it gets me thinking that this amount of curiosity will end up with me "crossing the lines"
While it may sound silly, this thought has been putting my mood down throughout days now. I even feel some sort of "guilt" when i smoke weed now, but i can't stop myself from browsing all over the forums, reading trip reports and sort.
Has anyone had simmilar thoughts back in the day? Would love to share some words.
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4 months back, I was so far away from any drugs and even alcohol.
Right now i smoke 3 to 4 grams of weed nearly everyday, got my hands on 200ug of LSD 2 times ( in the same week actualy ) and rolled some E once.
A week ago i watched a documentary about H when i was pretty high on some indica and since then i have this depressing feel of paranoia and guilt at the same time.
Since then i have read 6 books on heroin and countless articles. There probably is no video on youtube about heroin that i haven't watched. I have raised this irrepressible curiosity about drugs and it, at the same time, disturbs me a lot because it gets me thinking that this amount of curiosity will end up with me "crossing the lines"
While it may sound silly, this thought has been putting my mood down throughout days now. I even feel some sort of "guilt" when i smoke weed now, but i can't stop myself from browsing all over the forums, reading trip reports and sort.
Has anyone had simmilar thoughts back in the day? Would love to share some words.
8)