Metamphnethylamine
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 18, 2015
- Messages
- 10
My heart aches
Troubled by a numbness I can no longer hope to face
Chemical stimulation has become the structure of my foundation
Prescription payments rooted at the basis of my complacence
Some habits come around
But die hard as they leave
Others overwhelm
cloud what I try to see
I hover between bitter emptiness and daydreams so serene
But still I rationalize my every decision it seems
I'm lost like a family dog
wandered into a new place
My eager aptitude for life seems to have suddenly washed away
Fading footsteps in my memories
With no ability to scream "wait"
So the rain drops in my stormcloud help to wash away the name
The life that I once knew is anything but replaced
My life's a mess now judging from a bed that's never made
And everything I miss can never be the same
I can see her in my dreams though her image surely fades
Goodmorning
Yes!
I wake up to a pill or five
I think about success yet see a handful of failed tries
I made a kingdom from regrets
Seen standing tall atop my lies
Always protecting why I'm still so empty...I don't know who I am inside
But I do still sit here alone and wonder why
Why I'd still die for a chance to see her and taste heaven in her mind
Get lost inside her eyes
And find my home within her lies
And if that made any sense at all
I wouldn't be who she left behind
I lost myself in all my choices
Just to clear my head with a heavy sigh
What now?
I'm not sure how..
But I'm sure I can
I don't know a damned thing else
But I know that I sure can
I lost myself there
And had to struggle just to stand
But it's really just a chance to start over
And rebuild who I am
The nature of this life
When at a loss for what is right
Try again
Another day to live
Another chance to fight
Troubled by a numbness I can no longer hope to face
Chemical stimulation has become the structure of my foundation
Prescription payments rooted at the basis of my complacence
Some habits come around
But die hard as they leave
Others overwhelm
cloud what I try to see
I hover between bitter emptiness and daydreams so serene
But still I rationalize my every decision it seems
I'm lost like a family dog
wandered into a new place
My eager aptitude for life seems to have suddenly washed away
Fading footsteps in my memories
With no ability to scream "wait"
So the rain drops in my stormcloud help to wash away the name
The life that I once knew is anything but replaced
My life's a mess now judging from a bed that's never made
And everything I miss can never be the same
I can see her in my dreams though her image surely fades
Goodmorning
Yes!
I wake up to a pill or five
I think about success yet see a handful of failed tries
I made a kingdom from regrets
Seen standing tall atop my lies
Always protecting why I'm still so empty...I don't know who I am inside
But I do still sit here alone and wonder why
Why I'd still die for a chance to see her and taste heaven in her mind
Get lost inside her eyes
And find my home within her lies
And if that made any sense at all
I wouldn't be who she left behind
I lost myself in all my choices
Just to clear my head with a heavy sigh
What now?
I'm not sure how..
But I'm sure I can
I don't know a damned thing else
But I know that I sure can
I lost myself there
And had to struggle just to stand
But it's really just a chance to start over
And rebuild who I am
The nature of this life
When at a loss for what is right
Try again
Another day to live
Another chance to fight