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Ending it.

yoyo50

yoyo50

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Now you might think this is a cry for telp but no far from it i sent i have said my goodbyes to mates/family cept mum etc and wished them a goodbye which i jnever do so maybe there is a tiny little clue in there but im offer drap a lot of vallium and whiskey if i do wake up i know it's not the best combo i will then hang myself fun gettng to meet you don't if ever expected me to reply



thanks for all the fish
 
Sounds like you're feeling really hopeless but I'd urge you to make contact with someone who loves you or even the Samaritans for some support before comitting to something that is completely final. I hope this doesn't sound flippant, but as shitty as you're feeling now, feelings don't last forever.
 
Are you serious Yoyo or on some drunken benzoed warp? This doesnt sound like you atall. I hope to God you re-consider whatever it is your thinking of. I thought things were getting better all round for you, conquering a few addictions. You've made it through the hardest part, why give up now.8o
 
Yoyo, it's hard to separate wanting to die from wanting all the pain in your life to die, but it's important. You feel hopeless right now and I know everything must look like it supports that view, else you would not be considering what you are. If you are so exhausted inside that you cannot sustain any hope for yourself, for the changes that would improve your life and bring you some peace, then please reach out to someone that can hold hope for you--someone here, Good Samaritans, a crisis line, anyone. Wibble is right--feelings and thoughts come and go. I'm around if you want to PM.<3
 
I always said that I'd never even consider killing myself, no matter how bad things got. And I'd lived through some bad times.

Earlier on this year though I did start thinking that way, I didn't go so far as a plan but I imagined it, how things wouldn't hurt anymore, I wouldn't hurt others. Luckily I got scraped up by the people around me before it manifested itself even further... And I'm so fuckin grateful you wouldn't believe. It sounds clichéd but there is so much too live for. Even if life isn't what you wanted or expected you can change that.

I don't want to be away from my kids and Mrs. And that very nearly killed me, but now I just look at it as another chapter, what was wanted was not meant to be and now a load of other possibilities open up....

Don't throw the towel in because those possibilities will come to you <3
 
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem my friend. No problem is ever so big that it cannot be fixed.

Remember that happiness can be found in even the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
 
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anyone who knows yoyo irl, got him on fb, skype or ideally any way of contacting him outside of the internets, please do as a matter of urgency..!
 
The only person I recall knowing YoYo in some form away from the board is Josh. Josh doesn't come on very often anymore though..

I cant think of anyone else
 
IP check suggests he's nowhere near Josh, since he moved back to his parents and Iirc that would put him a long way away and I'm not so sure they were buddies anyway. Just moved in similar circles at some point.
 
Yoyo, contrary to what you say, this very much sounds like a cry for help. Please think long and hard about what you're saying and why you're saying it. I don't believe this is truly what you want, otherwise why tell everyone? You need to see a professional quickly... All the best mate, hope you can sort your head out soon. <3
 
SilentRoller said:
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem my friend. No problem is ever so big that it cannot be fixed.

Remember that happiness can be found in even the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
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Wise words well put!!
 
ScotchMist said:
IP check suggests he's nowhere near Josh, since he moved back to his parents and Iirc that would put him a long way away and I'm not so sure they were buddies anyway. Just moved in similar circles at some point.
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I think his log in is familiar from another well known site. As time may be of the essence, & as I have little of it right now & a bloody slow internet connection too, I wonder if anyone else might be able to seek his iD at UKCR. I hope mods will, under the circumstances, also forgive the UKCR hint...
 
I just lost my best friend of over 30 years. He walked into the woods and hung himself. Our family and friends searched for six day before he was found by a police dog. It has been devastating to so many people and his wife and children are inconsolable. Please don't do this I am telling you right now to think about the people you will leave behind. You can't imagine the wreckage this will cause to others, never mind that you have a life ahead of you and can go on to do great things. No matter how bad things look and feel you can make it.
In 2001 I was on the same road. I had lost everything and dove into booze and drugs. Suicide was on my mind day and night, I made one real attempt and somehow woke up. I was lucky I got sectioned and at 41 years old went to a halfway house. I have a wife of 30 years who loves me I have three children who love me. I have a life I could have never dreamed of back then.

I would have missed so many good things, I would have hurt so many people and left a mark on them for life.

YOU ARE WORTH IT !!!! Nothing is ever as bad as it seems, I'm not making light of how you feel right now. Just give it time and get help.

Please I am praying for you.

Ron
 
I've been where you've been, tried my hardest twice and failed. Your life can change, its going to and it will get better! <3

I have my problems with G, booze and stims but I'm still going and on top of things. You can do it too! :) <3

PM if you want to talk about anything further.
 
Boethius: It's my belief that history is a wheel. "Inconsistency is my very essence" -says the wheel- "Rise up on my spokes if you like, but don't complain when you are cast back down into the depths. Good times pass away, but then so do the bad. Mutability is our tragedy, but it is also our hope. The worst of times, like the best, are always passing away".
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Leave the blues alone.
 
Si Dread said:
I think his log in is familiar from another well known site. As time may be of the essence, & as I have little of it right now & a bloody slow internet connection too, I wonder if anyone else might be able to seek his iD at UKCR. I hope mods will, under the circumstances, also forgive the UKCR hint...
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Yeah, I only know his username from another site, one that isn't even in existence these days.

Don't think I need to reiterate what everyone else has already said about permanent solutions to temporary problems. But please try to find someone to talk it through with. You can probably make some changes in your life to make it worth living again. <3
 
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Cheers for all the replies and advice, i got nicked and put on 24/7 suicide watch and released without charge, last night i went to my first AA meeting i know it wasn't going to be easy but alot easier if i stop before it gets worse, booked in with GP alcohol specialist,found AA to be quite good everyone was so nice got alot of numbers and info, got some meds from a gp this morning which if works out with my plan of keeping busy i will sober for a week for the first time, im on a laptop so hard to type (hate the things) but will give you an update in a week or so hopefully a good one

thank you all, yours yoyo
 
Damn yoyo, firzt zaw thiz thread now. Man bro, take care pleaze. Im in zame boat about alcohol & benzoz. u juzt hit me a pm if u want to talk.

I don't want to looze u. Good u trying getting out of it.

Big luv for u bro <3 <3
 
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