beebox
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 3, 2017
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As of today (Sunday) I am two weeks sober. The worst of the withdrawals are over, I believe, and I figure I only have one more week of them until they're gone completely. I'm worried about the one month mark, because cravings can start to creep up around that time, however I can't think about that now too much. That's still way too far into the future. I must remain present.
This last week I've been happier than I've been in ages. Every day I have my head held high, and I can't even tell you the last time I was able to do that. It's a joy for me to wake up in the morning. I'm happy all throughout the day, less some anxiety here and there because it's in my DNA; I just feel so GOOD. And I know I have to take things one day at a time. Enjoy each day on its own. Don't think about tomorrow. But this feels so good.
I also feel very strong. The past year and a half I endured heartbreak after heartbreak accompanied with a raging cocaine addiction. Right now I'm choosing Me. For the first time in my life. Right now I need to be the most important person in my life. I need to be kind to myself, forgive myself, motivate myself, and celebrate myself.
Recovery is a long road, and I'm just in the beginning stages. I have a long, long way to go. But I'm beginning. I'm hopeful. And I'm emerging.
This last week I've been happier than I've been in ages. Every day I have my head held high, and I can't even tell you the last time I was able to do that. It's a joy for me to wake up in the morning. I'm happy all throughout the day, less some anxiety here and there because it's in my DNA; I just feel so GOOD. And I know I have to take things one day at a time. Enjoy each day on its own. Don't think about tomorrow. But this feels so good.
I also feel very strong. The past year and a half I endured heartbreak after heartbreak accompanied with a raging cocaine addiction. Right now I'm choosing Me. For the first time in my life. Right now I need to be the most important person in my life. I need to be kind to myself, forgive myself, motivate myself, and celebrate myself.
Recovery is a long road, and I'm just in the beginning stages. I have a long, long way to go. But I'm beginning. I'm hopeful. And I'm emerging.