My first encounter with LSD was at a psy trance party in the woods. My blotters were suppose to be 125 ug, but people had told me they were strong/good. I only took one, but experienced what I can only describe as an ego death. I didn't think that was possible on such a low dosage? Is it possible that my blotter contained more than 125 ug?
The trip was not in any way a bad trip.
Here is my experience regarding the ego death:
I started with 2/3 of the blotter. After about 20 min I started to feel the come up. The body high was fantastic, but at the same time it felt sort of like I needed more. I wasn't completely «there», so instead of waiting I took the rest of the blotter. In retrospect it’s easy to see that I didn’t give Lucy enough time. I was impatient.
After 1,5-2 hours I experienced increased mucus production, which lead to coughing. I coughed until i started vomiting, or at least I tried to vomit (empty stomach). It continued for a while, before I found out I had to go lie down. My boyfriend (sober) came with me.
I laid down on the blanket and looked up at the sky, which was all covered with clouds. It was beautiful, colorful, peaceful. It all came to me at once. A man was dancing in the clouds. He turned into a Roman warrior. An archer, a sword-man, a guardian. He moved around and showed me different poses. The clouds changed colors and floated across the sky faster than normal. After a while, a hole in the clouds opened up and I could se the stars. Behind the stars everything was dark, a complete and utter darkness which I didn't even knew existed. Suddenly the universe dropped down towards me at great speed. I felt it in my stomach, like on a huge roller coaster. I felt infinitely small and I got the feeling that I was going to disappear into the void, into nothingness. I grabbed my boyfriend to keep me from getting drawn into the darkness. It was frightening, but manageable. The universe retreated, and I went back to looking at the Roman warrior, the man in the clouds.
After a while my boyfriend was getting cold, so he asked if it was okay that he went dancing, and that he would be back in 10 min. I said yes. In a way I wanted to be alone. I enjoyed it. Everything was beautiful and I felt an inner peace.
I laid there, all by my self, looking up into the sky. I closed my eyes and had beautiful complex CEV. When I opened my eyes I could still see the colorful clouds, the Roman warrior, the stars and the darkness. Soon it became difficult to know when my eyes were open, and when they were closed – the two were blending together. My inner peace faded, and my mind started working… I had been here a few hours now and I was getting anxious. Why didn’t anyone talk to me? All these people passed by, but nobody cared? Where was my boyfriend, why hadn't he returned? Here I was, completely and utterly alone… More alone than I had ever been.
It suddenly felt like I was going to fall asleep. Or was I already sleeping? I was afraid, cause wasn't it suppose to be impossible to fall asleep on acid? Were my eyes open? Or closed? I fought and fought, trying to hold on to the last bit of what felt safe. It was too much. I didn't think I could handle it. Why had I taken acid? Why did I take everything? Could I ever return? What if I had to throw up again, then I would drown in my own vomit.. Why could I hardly feel my body anymore? Would I die? Or am I already dead?
Suddenly, everything began to make sense. Everything mattered and my head was clear. I realized that all I had to do was stop fighting, and let go. For some reason it didn’t matter if it was dangerous or not. I let go, and everything around me fell apart. I no longer felt my body, and I went out into nothingness. I felt everything and nothing at once. I saw everything and nothing at the same time. Everything turned white. I didn’t exist anymore, nothing on earth existed, but at the same time everything existed as one unit. Everything was nothing and nothing was everything. I saw several sunrises, I felt eternity. It is just impossible to put everything that happened into words…
The trip was not in any way a bad trip.
Here is my experience regarding the ego death:
I started with 2/3 of the blotter. After about 20 min I started to feel the come up. The body high was fantastic, but at the same time it felt sort of like I needed more. I wasn't completely «there», so instead of waiting I took the rest of the blotter. In retrospect it’s easy to see that I didn’t give Lucy enough time. I was impatient.
After 1,5-2 hours I experienced increased mucus production, which lead to coughing. I coughed until i started vomiting, or at least I tried to vomit (empty stomach). It continued for a while, before I found out I had to go lie down. My boyfriend (sober) came with me.
I laid down on the blanket and looked up at the sky, which was all covered with clouds. It was beautiful, colorful, peaceful. It all came to me at once. A man was dancing in the clouds. He turned into a Roman warrior. An archer, a sword-man, a guardian. He moved around and showed me different poses. The clouds changed colors and floated across the sky faster than normal. After a while, a hole in the clouds opened up and I could se the stars. Behind the stars everything was dark, a complete and utter darkness which I didn't even knew existed. Suddenly the universe dropped down towards me at great speed. I felt it in my stomach, like on a huge roller coaster. I felt infinitely small and I got the feeling that I was going to disappear into the void, into nothingness. I grabbed my boyfriend to keep me from getting drawn into the darkness. It was frightening, but manageable. The universe retreated, and I went back to looking at the Roman warrior, the man in the clouds.
After a while my boyfriend was getting cold, so he asked if it was okay that he went dancing, and that he would be back in 10 min. I said yes. In a way I wanted to be alone. I enjoyed it. Everything was beautiful and I felt an inner peace.
I laid there, all by my self, looking up into the sky. I closed my eyes and had beautiful complex CEV. When I opened my eyes I could still see the colorful clouds, the Roman warrior, the stars and the darkness. Soon it became difficult to know when my eyes were open, and when they were closed – the two were blending together. My inner peace faded, and my mind started working… I had been here a few hours now and I was getting anxious. Why didn’t anyone talk to me? All these people passed by, but nobody cared? Where was my boyfriend, why hadn't he returned? Here I was, completely and utterly alone… More alone than I had ever been.
It suddenly felt like I was going to fall asleep. Or was I already sleeping? I was afraid, cause wasn't it suppose to be impossible to fall asleep on acid? Were my eyes open? Or closed? I fought and fought, trying to hold on to the last bit of what felt safe. It was too much. I didn't think I could handle it. Why had I taken acid? Why did I take everything? Could I ever return? What if I had to throw up again, then I would drown in my own vomit.. Why could I hardly feel my body anymore? Would I die? Or am I already dead?
Suddenly, everything began to make sense. Everything mattered and my head was clear. I realized that all I had to do was stop fighting, and let go. For some reason it didn’t matter if it was dangerous or not. I let go, and everything around me fell apart. I no longer felt my body, and I went out into nothingness. I felt everything and nothing at once. I saw everything and nothing at the same time. Everything turned white. I didn’t exist anymore, nothing on earth existed, but at the same time everything existed as one unit. Everything was nothing and nothing was everything. I saw several sunrises, I felt eternity. It is just impossible to put everything that happened into words…
