Ok. As many of you know...I started rolling in August. I've now rolled a total of 9 times. And something weird has happened...I'm over E. :^O
Literally...the last time was New Years Day night at some clubs in Chicago. I had fun, but the "magic" is gone from the roll. When I first started my friends said to cherish the first few rolls because they would be the best. And now I see what they meant.
Am I crazy...or have I seen the best rolling I'm gonna see?
For those who don't know...from Aug-Sept I rolled 3 times. I took all of Oct off, and then I kinda went heavy and rolled every weekend of November (the last time being on 4 beans in one night...I was trying to find the limits of where the roll would take me). Then I rolled once in Dec. and two weeks ago in Chicago. I know that I built up a tolerance in november (especially with the 4 beans in one night stunt I pulled) and my roll of two weeks ago was very nice but not the hardest so I think I still may have a small tolerance going...but ya know what? It's really not that shocking or upsetting to me.
I guess I'd like to ask more veteran rollers if you've gone through something like this as well? At this point I can honestly say I don't know when my next roll will be. I have no urge to "go there." It's still fun, and I've learned that I enjoy a roll most when I'm with a GROUP of people and not by myself (even at a party, if I'm alone, I'd rather not roll). Anyone out there that can relate? Or should I just down 2 pills this weekend and shut up? hehehehe Seriously...I'm not rolling this weekend.
Now this brings me to my next point of this post: Acid. Oh My God!!! The first experience I had with A was back in November when I candyflipped for the first time. That was FUN. My first trip on A by itself was in December at a house party. I had one gel tab and it hit me kinda weird. I'm not sure if there was other stuff in it aside from LSD, but my stomach got really tense and upset during the entire trip...made it hard to enjoy the rest of the experience.
My second trip was about 2 weeks after the gel tab. This time I had a blotter at a party that was INCREDIBLE. But here's my "acid question"...I keep reading and hearing about people who lose it when they trip and that there's a such a thing as a bad trip....how???
All I notice when I trip is that I become very peaceful, I get a buzz similar to rolling and music (and any stimulation really) is VERY cool. I've not seen trails on lights, walls breathing, colors bleeding, or little green people coming out of the wall. I HAVE had time distortion and some mild hallucinations (like a strobe light is going off even though there aren't any strobes around.) And ya know what? That stuff is really cool! hehehe I guess my question now takes this turn:
By taking hits one at a time...is my trip remaining "constant" at a level that hasn't gone to a higher level yet? The most hits I've done in one night/day is three. I apparently like blotters the most because of how clean the trips I've gotten from blotters have been. But...would it be to my advantage to drop say two or three hits all at once?
I can say this: I realize that everything that I will experience is happening in my mind and that I will be safe and fine. I go in with the mindset of just experiencing EVERYTHING and I give all new phenomena welcome. I don't fear anything happening.
I can TOTALLY relate about liquiding better on A...until I tripped I COULDN'T liquid at all! I have ALWAYS admired this form of dancing the most and I am usually the dude you see standing on the sides with his jaw open at the beauty of liquid dancers...and now I'm one of them!
(I'm so impressed with A's ability to put you at peace within yourself and smooth you over) Are there other avenues that I should explore about myself with A that can be fun?
Just wondering if I'll ever see trails off of someone's glowsticks at a party.
Love and Hugs,
Jim
Literally...the last time was New Years Day night at some clubs in Chicago. I had fun, but the "magic" is gone from the roll. When I first started my friends said to cherish the first few rolls because they would be the best. And now I see what they meant.
Am I crazy...or have I seen the best rolling I'm gonna see?
For those who don't know...from Aug-Sept I rolled 3 times. I took all of Oct off, and then I kinda went heavy and rolled every weekend of November (the last time being on 4 beans in one night...I was trying to find the limits of where the roll would take me). Then I rolled once in Dec. and two weeks ago in Chicago. I know that I built up a tolerance in november (especially with the 4 beans in one night stunt I pulled) and my roll of two weeks ago was very nice but not the hardest so I think I still may have a small tolerance going...but ya know what? It's really not that shocking or upsetting to me.
I guess I'd like to ask more veteran rollers if you've gone through something like this as well? At this point I can honestly say I don't know when my next roll will be. I have no urge to "go there." It's still fun, and I've learned that I enjoy a roll most when I'm with a GROUP of people and not by myself (even at a party, if I'm alone, I'd rather not roll). Anyone out there that can relate? Or should I just down 2 pills this weekend and shut up? hehehehe Seriously...I'm not rolling this weekend.
Now this brings me to my next point of this post: Acid. Oh My God!!! The first experience I had with A was back in November when I candyflipped for the first time. That was FUN. My first trip on A by itself was in December at a house party. I had one gel tab and it hit me kinda weird. I'm not sure if there was other stuff in it aside from LSD, but my stomach got really tense and upset during the entire trip...made it hard to enjoy the rest of the experience.
My second trip was about 2 weeks after the gel tab. This time I had a blotter at a party that was INCREDIBLE. But here's my "acid question"...I keep reading and hearing about people who lose it when they trip and that there's a such a thing as a bad trip....how???
All I notice when I trip is that I become very peaceful, I get a buzz similar to rolling and music (and any stimulation really) is VERY cool. I've not seen trails on lights, walls breathing, colors bleeding, or little green people coming out of the wall. I HAVE had time distortion and some mild hallucinations (like a strobe light is going off even though there aren't any strobes around.) And ya know what? That stuff is really cool! hehehe I guess my question now takes this turn:
By taking hits one at a time...is my trip remaining "constant" at a level that hasn't gone to a higher level yet? The most hits I've done in one night/day is three. I apparently like blotters the most because of how clean the trips I've gotten from blotters have been. But...would it be to my advantage to drop say two or three hits all at once?
I can say this: I realize that everything that I will experience is happening in my mind and that I will be safe and fine. I go in with the mindset of just experiencing EVERYTHING and I give all new phenomena welcome. I don't fear anything happening.
I can TOTALLY relate about liquiding better on A...until I tripped I COULDN'T liquid at all! I have ALWAYS admired this form of dancing the most and I am usually the dude you see standing on the sides with his jaw open at the beauty of liquid dancers...and now I'm one of them!
Just wondering if I'll ever see trails off of someone's glowsticks at a party.
Love and Hugs,
Jim
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