Tussin_Space
Greenlighter
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Read 2nd section for details of post title, 1st section is background for those who might have some understanding of what happened.
Before I start, DXM in higher doses turns into PCP in your body. A nurse researched this after I was admitted to the hospital and then the psych ward and she told me I had PCP in my system, but all I did was robotrip on a higher amount than usual.
About 4 years ago I started robotripping. I started on 1 box of Coricidin Cough & Cold, which is 480MG. After maybe 3 or 4 months, I noticed the effects were dimming, so I moved up to 1 1/2 boxes, 720MG. I was doing it at least every 3 or 4 days minimum, sometimes night after night until I was forced to sleep for a full day or more to function. I once did 2 boxes before really needing to, which is when I hit the 5th plateau for my first time, scared me to death when I couldn't tell if my light was on, if I had music going or not, and thinking I was trapped in some mental ward like this, lol. Anyway, I eventually moved up to 2 boxes at a time, 960MG, after another couple months of extreme use. I didn't know what addiction was yet, and thought I had control of it. I was actually tripping to hallucinate so I could see my ex fiancee, we'd split up shortly before I started using, which was why I used. I became entrapped in this state of psychosis and schitzo personality of being some spiritual being. When robotripping, I felt like I was my soul, and my body was a robot that my soul lived in, best way I can think to describe it. I went in and out of mental health wards, eventually left home to continue use of DXM without being fussed at by my parents. My dad is a preacher and they only wanted to help me, but I didn't want it. One night I had taken my entire month's supply of trazadone (Thankfully not on it anymore, it sucks) and somewhere around 2,000MG of DXM. From what I found investigating (Just like The Hangover movie), I was in my hotel room (mix of halfway house and hotel, not monitored much) for 2 weeks without being seen. I remember after taking all those pills, I was back in California with my ex just living a normal life with her, of course weird things happened like they do in dreams, but they seemed completely normal. A psychiatrist told me I most likely, but he cannot medically diagnose this, had a psychological breakdown and was trapped in psychosis for the 2 weeks. Somehow I survived. Moving on.. I'd used about every form of DXM except ever extracting it, gels, tussin liquid, delsym, etc. One night after downing 2 big bottles of delsym, I noticed the magic had disappeared.
Here is what it used to be like when tripping. I would start to feel the come up, eyes dialate, things start becoming surreal and interesting. Then I slip into the tussin space in a full trip. Some people don't I heard, but I'm one of the ones who sweat profusely while tripping. Like walking around downtown outside in Wisconsin in December at midnight in shorts and a t-shirt, tripping, and feeling great. That's negative degree weather FYI. So, I had the magical body orgasm flowing through me, lie back and feel like I'm flying, controlling where the direction shifts to. Hallucinations, dissassociation, music sounds 1 billion times better, like I could hear every instrument separate at different times than they are really played, yet altogether at once. Thoughts are completely strode everywhere, and I feel like I know the answer to all the major universal questions to life and spirituality.
So, now what's happening is, I still have the dialated eyes on the come up, I feel the surrealness. But it's like I never pass that threshhold into the tussin space. I actually get cold to where I need a blanket or hoodie on to be comfortable, which is the exact opposite of what it used to do. No sweating, still fast heartbeat, can't tell if my eyes or closed or not due to closed eye visuals. There's no more body orgasms, no flying around, I feel my body perfectly, except for a tad bit of numbness. I still have the metallic tussin taste you get. I'm not all that dissassociated or tripping, no intensity. Music is like 20% as awesome as it used to be tripping. Some of the weirdness of tripping is still there mentally. I've heard and read about the '50 trip limit', it's not literal, just that there is a limit. I have a couple friends who have the same problem of the magic being gone while tripping, and we've not been able to figure it out, as none of us are that well versed in chemicals in the body and such. I am now on 100MG Zoloft a day, Tramadol 200MG 4 times a day, Soma 350MG twice a day. But I wasn't on this until a few months ago. I even read somewhere that waiting a year to let your tolerance die off helps, but I did that, and not a thing changed. I also read something about taking certain nutrients and vitamins to restore certain chemicals in your body helps, but haven't done that. I now have problems with my body overheating on its own, without any drugs. I am almost always hotter than everyone else. If a room is cold to everyone else, I am usually somewhat comfortable. Dxm has definitely dumbed me down, I am half as smart as I used to be, brain damage? Does anyone else have experience with this or understand what has happened? Is there any way to get the magic back? I miss the tussin space.
Also, I've tried drinking grapefruit juice beforehand because I know it enhances it, but it just made the non trip more intense, if that makes sense, lol. And, is it possible I just need to move up to 3 boxes of CCC's? My only problem with trying that is the urinary retention, I've had to get countless catheters due to this, always with 960MG or above though, never lower. So i'm afraid I will go through this again with a much higher dose. And last thing, as part of my current issues, I forgot to mention that I have a bit of trouble urinating now, without being on meds, and just the slightest bit of opioids can cause me to not be able to pee without some assistance (guys if you know the technique I mean, to make your urine flow), and when I take a #2 on the toilet, I cannot hold back the urine if I have to pee at all, in the process. I assume this is from the catheters or DXM, or both.
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Before I start, DXM in higher doses turns into PCP in your body. A nurse researched this after I was admitted to the hospital and then the psych ward and she told me I had PCP in my system, but all I did was robotrip on a higher amount than usual.
About 4 years ago I started robotripping. I started on 1 box of Coricidin Cough & Cold, which is 480MG. After maybe 3 or 4 months, I noticed the effects were dimming, so I moved up to 1 1/2 boxes, 720MG. I was doing it at least every 3 or 4 days minimum, sometimes night after night until I was forced to sleep for a full day or more to function. I once did 2 boxes before really needing to, which is when I hit the 5th plateau for my first time, scared me to death when I couldn't tell if my light was on, if I had music going or not, and thinking I was trapped in some mental ward like this, lol. Anyway, I eventually moved up to 2 boxes at a time, 960MG, after another couple months of extreme use. I didn't know what addiction was yet, and thought I had control of it. I was actually tripping to hallucinate so I could see my ex fiancee, we'd split up shortly before I started using, which was why I used. I became entrapped in this state of psychosis and schitzo personality of being some spiritual being. When robotripping, I felt like I was my soul, and my body was a robot that my soul lived in, best way I can think to describe it. I went in and out of mental health wards, eventually left home to continue use of DXM without being fussed at by my parents. My dad is a preacher and they only wanted to help me, but I didn't want it. One night I had taken my entire month's supply of trazadone (Thankfully not on it anymore, it sucks) and somewhere around 2,000MG of DXM. From what I found investigating (Just like The Hangover movie), I was in my hotel room (mix of halfway house and hotel, not monitored much) for 2 weeks without being seen. I remember after taking all those pills, I was back in California with my ex just living a normal life with her, of course weird things happened like they do in dreams, but they seemed completely normal. A psychiatrist told me I most likely, but he cannot medically diagnose this, had a psychological breakdown and was trapped in psychosis for the 2 weeks. Somehow I survived. Moving on.. I'd used about every form of DXM except ever extracting it, gels, tussin liquid, delsym, etc. One night after downing 2 big bottles of delsym, I noticed the magic had disappeared.
Here is what it used to be like when tripping. I would start to feel the come up, eyes dialate, things start becoming surreal and interesting. Then I slip into the tussin space in a full trip. Some people don't I heard, but I'm one of the ones who sweat profusely while tripping. Like walking around downtown outside in Wisconsin in December at midnight in shorts and a t-shirt, tripping, and feeling great. That's negative degree weather FYI. So, I had the magical body orgasm flowing through me, lie back and feel like I'm flying, controlling where the direction shifts to. Hallucinations, dissassociation, music sounds 1 billion times better, like I could hear every instrument separate at different times than they are really played, yet altogether at once. Thoughts are completely strode everywhere, and I feel like I know the answer to all the major universal questions to life and spirituality.
So, now what's happening is, I still have the dialated eyes on the come up, I feel the surrealness. But it's like I never pass that threshhold into the tussin space. I actually get cold to where I need a blanket or hoodie on to be comfortable, which is the exact opposite of what it used to do. No sweating, still fast heartbeat, can't tell if my eyes or closed or not due to closed eye visuals. There's no more body orgasms, no flying around, I feel my body perfectly, except for a tad bit of numbness. I still have the metallic tussin taste you get. I'm not all that dissassociated or tripping, no intensity. Music is like 20% as awesome as it used to be tripping. Some of the weirdness of tripping is still there mentally. I've heard and read about the '50 trip limit', it's not literal, just that there is a limit. I have a couple friends who have the same problem of the magic being gone while tripping, and we've not been able to figure it out, as none of us are that well versed in chemicals in the body and such. I am now on 100MG Zoloft a day, Tramadol 200MG 4 times a day, Soma 350MG twice a day. But I wasn't on this until a few months ago. I even read somewhere that waiting a year to let your tolerance die off helps, but I did that, and not a thing changed. I also read something about taking certain nutrients and vitamins to restore certain chemicals in your body helps, but haven't done that. I now have problems with my body overheating on its own, without any drugs. I am almost always hotter than everyone else. If a room is cold to everyone else, I am usually somewhat comfortable. Dxm has definitely dumbed me down, I am half as smart as I used to be, brain damage? Does anyone else have experience with this or understand what has happened? Is there any way to get the magic back? I miss the tussin space.
Also, I've tried drinking grapefruit juice beforehand because I know it enhances it, but it just made the non trip more intense, if that makes sense, lol. And, is it possible I just need to move up to 3 boxes of CCC's? My only problem with trying that is the urinary retention, I've had to get countless catheters due to this, always with 960MG or above though, never lower. So i'm afraid I will go through this again with a much higher dose. And last thing, as part of my current issues, I forgot to mention that I have a bit of trouble urinating now, without being on meds, and just the slightest bit of opioids can cause me to not be able to pee without some assistance (guys if you know the technique I mean, to make your urine flow), and when I take a #2 on the toilet, I cannot hold back the urine if I have to pee at all, in the process. I assume this is from the catheters or DXM, or both.
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