Hello, I am writing to you all a short part of my story, I'll try to make it as short as possible and leave only the relevant parts in; Thank you for reading
Ever since my first experience (19 years old) on LSD I am convinced that I am meant to be a shaman/mystic whatever you want to call it, someone who deals in all things spiritual.
At age 21 I was taking LSD and my visual hallucinations were diagnosed as psychosis, I was put on antipsychotics and interned against my will in a rehab center.
At age 24 I smoked weed and from the symptoms of weed smoking, some paranoia, some auditive hallucinations (you know like the sound of music sounding better) I was put on antipsychotics again
At age 28 I was given some fake LSD (I don't know how it's called but it's not genuine LSD-25) and went into a a toxic psychosis, I was put on antipsychotics and sent to rehab again against my will.
At age 30 I was smoking weed and was so afraid to be interned again that I went into a panic attack that...got me interned. Once more antipsychotics.
So now I'm 31, it's been 10 long years of suffering, of antipsychotics, of feeling chemically lobotomised, robotised, zombified, call it what you will, you know what I'm talking about and I am about to take a big step in my life, I have already talked about it with my family and told them to accept me as I was, that I used weed not for recreational purposes but for spiritual ones, this is truly what I believe, that my will had to be respected.
Now my question about western medicine, what does it really know about psychosis? From what I've learned, not a whole lot, it's just an agglomeration of symptoms which are all treated through major tranquilizers (antipsychotics) but I mean, if someone is shaking and you hit him with a hammer on the head, of course the shaking is going to stop, right?
I am about to start smoking weed again tomorrow, I know weed never caused me no harm, not in the way of mental illness, the symptoms do not persist after the effects have run their course, as soon as the high comes down, the "symptoms" or as I like to call them "spiritual experiences" vanish slowly.
So I am asking you guys, what do you think western medicine really knows about Spirituality, drugs and mental illness. Is a psychosis basically the same thing as what we commonly call a "trip"? Is this a psychosis for them? Because I mean, If you take LSD for instance, it's quite clear that you're going to hallucinate, and hallucinations are a form of psychosis if I understood it correctly.
Moreover I wanted to share with you all my joy for my rebirth, finally after ten years of suffering in unspeakable ways (I don't develop because I want to keep the post short) I am finally accepted in my family as a spiritual walker. I will be able to smoke weed without the fear of being interned again in a rehab clinic.
TLDR; Is spiritual experience the same as psychosis?
Cheers and thanks for your opinions!
Ever since my first experience (19 years old) on LSD I am convinced that I am meant to be a shaman/mystic whatever you want to call it, someone who deals in all things spiritual.
At age 21 I was taking LSD and my visual hallucinations were diagnosed as psychosis, I was put on antipsychotics and interned against my will in a rehab center.
At age 24 I smoked weed and from the symptoms of weed smoking, some paranoia, some auditive hallucinations (you know like the sound of music sounding better) I was put on antipsychotics again
At age 28 I was given some fake LSD (I don't know how it's called but it's not genuine LSD-25) and went into a a toxic psychosis, I was put on antipsychotics and sent to rehab again against my will.
At age 30 I was smoking weed and was so afraid to be interned again that I went into a panic attack that...got me interned. Once more antipsychotics.
So now I'm 31, it's been 10 long years of suffering, of antipsychotics, of feeling chemically lobotomised, robotised, zombified, call it what you will, you know what I'm talking about and I am about to take a big step in my life, I have already talked about it with my family and told them to accept me as I was, that I used weed not for recreational purposes but for spiritual ones, this is truly what I believe, that my will had to be respected.
Now my question about western medicine, what does it really know about psychosis? From what I've learned, not a whole lot, it's just an agglomeration of symptoms which are all treated through major tranquilizers (antipsychotics) but I mean, if someone is shaking and you hit him with a hammer on the head, of course the shaking is going to stop, right?
I am about to start smoking weed again tomorrow, I know weed never caused me no harm, not in the way of mental illness, the symptoms do not persist after the effects have run their course, as soon as the high comes down, the "symptoms" or as I like to call them "spiritual experiences" vanish slowly.
So I am asking you guys, what do you think western medicine really knows about Spirituality, drugs and mental illness. Is a psychosis basically the same thing as what we commonly call a "trip"? Is this a psychosis for them? Because I mean, If you take LSD for instance, it's quite clear that you're going to hallucinate, and hallucinations are a form of psychosis if I understood it correctly.
Moreover I wanted to share with you all my joy for my rebirth, finally after ten years of suffering in unspeakable ways (I don't develop because I want to keep the post short) I am finally accepted in my family as a spiritual walker. I will be able to smoke weed without the fear of being interned again in a rehab clinic.
TLDR; Is spiritual experience the same as psychosis?
Cheers and thanks for your opinions!