DJWhat
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 9, 2002
- Messages
- 813
I have a problem...I am shy. I have a really hard time talking to people I don't know without feeling anxious in some way. I often feel like people are judging me when I walk into a place. Also I get anxious in situations that I shouldn't get anxious in, such as going to the barber and stuff. Yes, it sounds ridiculous, but this is my life and I'm sick of it. It has gotten much better the last couple of years, though, but I feel like I'm missing something to get me "over the hump."
I have no health insurance because I have no job, partly due to my shyness. However, I do live very close to Mexico, so I can get prescription drugs with no problem. I am wondering if a benzo like Xanax will do anything to help me out, or will those just tranquilize me to the point where I don't care about anything? I also hear that benzos are very addictive, if that's the case then maybe I shouldn't mess with them. Perhaps there's a drug I can take before I go into certain situations that make me anxious, that has no recreational value so I don't get hooked.
I don't want to mess with an SSRI or MAOI, because of the sexual side effects, plus I don't want anything to fuck with my rolls. That may sound like my priorities are all out of whack, but honestly I think that the ecstasy has helped me with my self-confidence and made me happier in general.
And please don't reply saying I should try therapy, I've tried that before and it just made me feel worse. I can't afford it anyway. I don't want to hear anything like "drugs aren't the answer," either, because I am willing to take my chances with drugs if it means I can cure this problem of mine. Shyness fucking sucks, and nothing I do seems to make it go away, except drugs...
I have no health insurance because I have no job, partly due to my shyness. However, I do live very close to Mexico, so I can get prescription drugs with no problem. I am wondering if a benzo like Xanax will do anything to help me out, or will those just tranquilize me to the point where I don't care about anything? I also hear that benzos are very addictive, if that's the case then maybe I shouldn't mess with them. Perhaps there's a drug I can take before I go into certain situations that make me anxious, that has no recreational value so I don't get hooked.
I don't want to mess with an SSRI or MAOI, because of the sexual side effects, plus I don't want anything to fuck with my rolls. That may sound like my priorities are all out of whack, but honestly I think that the ecstasy has helped me with my self-confidence and made me happier in general.
And please don't reply saying I should try therapy, I've tried that before and it just made me feel worse. I can't afford it anyway. I don't want to hear anything like "drugs aren't the answer," either, because I am willing to take my chances with drugs if it means I can cure this problem of mine. Shyness fucking sucks, and nothing I do seems to make it go away, except drugs...