Hi guys, I'm a 19yr old student who has abused drugs in the past, Iil give a quick overview of what the past five years has been for me,
I started smoking weed at 14, I never smoked have then, it was only the odd time, I loved it, but the more I smoked the more dependent I was on it, I hit 15 years of age, I was smoking 4-5 times a week, I also took my first ecstasy pill at that age, I remember like it was yeaterday. From then I I started using ecstasy. I didn't abuse at that age, I enjoyed drugs then. Then one night We got some cocaine, I started using that on nights out, them mephedrone came along, Then the drug I would favour over them all MDMA CrYstals.
got to the age of 16,
Started dropping nearly 10 pills a night when I was drinking, if there was no pills, It would be multiple grams of cocaine,mephedrone or MDMA,
For 1 example me and a mate once Swallowed 1 full gram of mephedrone, Sniffed 7gs in 24 hrs.
Never noticed myself self change because every weekend we would be going hard on either of the drugs I mentioned, Nearly every weekend we were taking stuff. It got to the point were we were doing ridiculous amounts of drugs, I nearly lost a freind 1 night. But that didn't stop
, when It was the first time I took mdma, I loved it, started off with small amounts, but what it ought was small amounts wasn't really, only lying to myself,
i took mdma too many times to count, and it's the mama I think what fucked me up!
We we could go through nearly 1 or 2 gram of mdma each a night
then one night I took a fuck load, and went absolutely retarted(i was gone it was like I didn't even have a brain)I can remember flash backs, and I never ever want to remember what else I was doing.
Took mdma again after that, same thing happened again,
took xtacy pills after that, I Ended up freaking out thinking one of my friends was talking about me and makin a fool out of me by talking jibberish, really he wasn't, I just thought he was.
to to cut a long story short, if I take a moderate amount of Coke, md, or xtacy most chances are I will just lose my mind, I will eventually come around to myself,but still it never happens to me,
I haven't taken class a's in 2 months probably my first break , I do feel a bit better but I know and I feel I am a diffent person,
My memory is gone to shit, I have no interest in anything, I can't focus, conversate, And I feel like I'm just a fucking zombie, My tutors know I have something going on, They ask me why I can't remember this and that,
My ability to be a human in general is gone I think. I went to the doctor explained everything to him, He was no addition and told me that I would return back to normal if I just stay off drugs, which I do except weed, I still smoke that everyday, which has helped me dearly, I also cut down on the amount I smoke.
I can't explain it you guys properly because the drugs have my brain fucked, it comes with the problems I received, can't explain myself properly, can't remember shit that happened yesterday or what was said yesterday, ability to think and desion making have all been affected,
And I simply don't believe my doctor that all is going to be ok! I have my life ahead of me, and because I was a twat and partied like a mothrfuukr I feel like I'm done for.
I can still remeber the years before i started taking drugs,
I Searched online for months now have have found many links of this kind of drug abuse to Brain damage (hippocampus) .
Doctor is a No Go!
I started smoking weed at 14, I never smoked have then, it was only the odd time, I loved it, but the more I smoked the more dependent I was on it, I hit 15 years of age, I was smoking 4-5 times a week, I also took my first ecstasy pill at that age, I remember like it was yeaterday. From then I I started using ecstasy. I didn't abuse at that age, I enjoyed drugs then. Then one night We got some cocaine, I started using that on nights out, them mephedrone came along, Then the drug I would favour over them all MDMA CrYstals.
got to the age of 16,
Started dropping nearly 10 pills a night when I was drinking, if there was no pills, It would be multiple grams of cocaine,mephedrone or MDMA,
For 1 example me and a mate once Swallowed 1 full gram of mephedrone, Sniffed 7gs in 24 hrs.
Never noticed myself self change because every weekend we would be going hard on either of the drugs I mentioned, Nearly every weekend we were taking stuff. It got to the point were we were doing ridiculous amounts of drugs, I nearly lost a freind 1 night. But that didn't stop
, when It was the first time I took mdma, I loved it, started off with small amounts, but what it ought was small amounts wasn't really, only lying to myself,
i took mdma too many times to count, and it's the mama I think what fucked me up!
We we could go through nearly 1 or 2 gram of mdma each a night
then one night I took a fuck load, and went absolutely retarted(i was gone it was like I didn't even have a brain)I can remember flash backs, and I never ever want to remember what else I was doing.
Took mdma again after that, same thing happened again,
took xtacy pills after that, I Ended up freaking out thinking one of my friends was talking about me and makin a fool out of me by talking jibberish, really he wasn't, I just thought he was.
to to cut a long story short, if I take a moderate amount of Coke, md, or xtacy most chances are I will just lose my mind, I will eventually come around to myself,but still it never happens to me,
I haven't taken class a's in 2 months probably my first break , I do feel a bit better but I know and I feel I am a diffent person,
My memory is gone to shit, I have no interest in anything, I can't focus, conversate, And I feel like I'm just a fucking zombie, My tutors know I have something going on, They ask me why I can't remember this and that,
My ability to be a human in general is gone I think. I went to the doctor explained everything to him, He was no addition and told me that I would return back to normal if I just stay off drugs, which I do except weed, I still smoke that everyday, which has helped me dearly, I also cut down on the amount I smoke.
I can't explain it you guys properly because the drugs have my brain fucked, it comes with the problems I received, can't explain myself properly, can't remember shit that happened yesterday or what was said yesterday, ability to think and desion making have all been affected,
And I simply don't believe my doctor that all is going to be ok! I have my life ahead of me, and because I was a twat and partied like a mothrfuukr I feel like I'm done for.
I can still remeber the years before i started taking drugs,
I Searched online for months now have have found many links of this kind of drug abuse to Brain damage (hippocampus) .
Doctor is a No Go!