I no longer take the Wellbuturin, my psych changed me over to Buspar which is technically not an anti depressant, but is an anti anxiety med. I much, much prefer this drug, it is excellent. Wellbuterin never did anything good for me. I got a clonic tonic seizers from Wellbuterin and Finistride. Prior to that I would smoke marijuana maybe twice a week (3-4 puffs at night) and take valium maybe once or twice a week. I only take the valium if I cannot get to sleep, and I usually wait until 3 in the morning to take it, and only take half a pill. I do not drink or take any recreational drugs. Since my seizure I stopped marijuana and or Delta 8. It was effortless to stop. I have been in extreme pain (Rhabdo is as painful as major surgery) but still only use Kratom 3 times a week. I have not been training, I still have limited use of my left arm which was 100% paralyzed for nearly 3 weeks. I obviously don't take finestride anymore, just accept my hair falling out. I am pretty much always sober and have absolutely no drug addiction, except for the drugs my psych prescribes.
Nonetheless, and here is the crazy part, my wife wants me to go to rehab. I said "rehab for what? I have not smoked pot in nearly a month and take a grand total of 1 valium a week." She said "I don't know, just go to rehab." Also, it seems like the medical report tried to portray me as a drug addict. I tested negative for opioids which are admittedly a big problem in the bodybuilding community...I have Tramadol but never take it because I don't like it...and it also causes seizures, so I did not take it even though I was in extreme pain. I tested negative for everything except valium and marijuana. But that is because pot stay in for 30 days, so they view an occasional user as someone who smokes 24/7...I know people like this and am most certainly not one of them. I just don't like pot that much.
I know Kratom is addictive, but I simply don't use it enough. I use it because my pain levels are extraordinary. I trained in MMA for 17 years and have fought multiple matches on a broken leg, continued to fight after having my eye socket and cheekbone shattered (my face is full of metal) I take more pain than your average person. I read my medical report and apparently I died on the table and was brought back. I think the hospital is just trying to protect itself. They really screwed up by keeping me on Wellbuterin, and it seems now that my voice is permanently damaged from the intubation tube I sported for more than 4 days. The knuckleheads used one that was too large. I sound like Batman. Everyone says I should sue them, but that is really not my style.
The only ting I am really addicted to is exercise. I actually tried a short bike ride yesterday and it was wonderful.
