Raspy Dylan
Greenlighter
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- Jun 25, 2014
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Hello all, I've been a bluelighter for a long time but recently changed my name and started a new account for personal reasons. Anyway, I wanted to share my experience from last night with you guys. I think it's important.
I combined the deemster and ketamine the past two evenings and had an incredible time. So very beautiful, even when it was scary at times. This is going to be extremely difficult to explain, but I think at the end, last night, I found god. I'm not religious at all, in fact for a long time I've felt pretty certain that there may indeed be "intelligent design" of some sort, but other than that it's just lights out when we die, nada, nothing, gone.... But last night I had a full on conversation with either a higher power, or with myself in a dramatically enhanced state of consciousness.
When I've smoked deemster in the past I've often heard voices and felt different "forces" pulling me in different directions, often it felt like good and evil, and I would normally try very hard to follow the good but there was always interference and confusion....often the voices said things like "I thought we agreed not to let him see this much," "well it's too late now, isn't it!" ...and everytime I try to remember something profound I'm immediately punished by losing my grip on the thought altogether and letting it slip away like a forgotten dream. But the ketamine kinda slowed it down and allowed me to explore it all a bit better. Still the rapid-fire changing realities and extreme visuals, but just a bit slower and more understandable I guess. I reached a point where I totally gave in to the positive forces and allowed them to pull me into their world, even letting me ask questions and providing answers. No interference at all.
I've always felt (and even told others) that if there is a god, we as humans could not possibly grasp it in its entirety, just as ants on an anthill on the sidewalk could never look up at a human and understand the complexities of our emotions and experiences, our capabilities and our understanding of the world. An ant's brain power is so entirely inferior to a human's that it's bizarre to even think about how different we are. And so it is with a human on earth looking up at god and trying to understand it all, let alone trying to explain it to others....can't happen, not possible, we're too inferior...but the deemster takes our brains to a dramatically expanded state and allows us to see what the human mind is really capable of doing, and it's incredible, to say the least.
So anyway, when I was pulled into this state of total positivity & curiosity, I became very calm, and began to ask questions. I was told "of course there's a god, or gods, of course there's more to the universe than the human brain can comprehend, you really think this is all possible just because of a Big Bang and evolution?!? and yes, we really do see everything, all the time. We are everywhere and we do not judge harshly, we understand, and we forgive" When I asked if there was an afterlife, it laughed a bit and said something like "again, of course...you really think we would give you all of this LIFE and then just switch you off when you die? We're not that cruel! There's much more than just this life on earth, but it is, however, very important that you live a good life, keep your body healthy, try with all your might to avoid anything that will have a negative impact on yourself, others, or the world...and also, cut out all those other drugs, they are not helping you to achieve anything, the DMT will allow you to contact us, but you'll never even come close with anything else, so if it's addictive and going to hurt your body, don't waste your time." And lastly, and I've actually read this elsewhere today in descriptions of other peoples' experiences...for some reason I had a powerful feeling that the forces were indeed Christian in nature...not in a religious sense necessarily, but more in the "Jesus did indeed walk the pathway of god" type of thing. and they said there have been many many (possibly millions) of Jesus types that have come and gone, and are still here...but no humans ever wrote a bible about the other ones, they had varying degrees of recognition and acclaim, and also varying degrees of "staying on the pathway" for lack of better words. They said I was supposed to be one that walks the pathway, but I've done a lot of damage with the drugs I've done. They didn't say it was too late for me or anything like that, but it did seem as tho I was being told I am on an incorrect pathway right now, and I need to shape up and sharpen myself.
I'm sorry for the ramble, but I felt that it was worth mentioning and sharing. I don't intend to over-analyze it too much, despite the profound nature of of it...But I do intend to begin living my life in the "light of god" so to speak. I do not want to question the existence anymore, I feel very confident that what I experienced was real, whether it was actually god(s) talking to me or my own mind blown so far open that I was able to understand it all. Obviously it's very hard to explain and my words fall so very short of proving my point, because everything else that was happening all around me was also providing insight and asnwers too, not just the words and questions.
Anyway, best of luck to everyone, much love and good vibes, and thanks for reading if you made it this far!
-RD
I combined the deemster and ketamine the past two evenings and had an incredible time. So very beautiful, even when it was scary at times. This is going to be extremely difficult to explain, but I think at the end, last night, I found god. I'm not religious at all, in fact for a long time I've felt pretty certain that there may indeed be "intelligent design" of some sort, but other than that it's just lights out when we die, nada, nothing, gone.... But last night I had a full on conversation with either a higher power, or with myself in a dramatically enhanced state of consciousness.
When I've smoked deemster in the past I've often heard voices and felt different "forces" pulling me in different directions, often it felt like good and evil, and I would normally try very hard to follow the good but there was always interference and confusion....often the voices said things like "I thought we agreed not to let him see this much," "well it's too late now, isn't it!" ...and everytime I try to remember something profound I'm immediately punished by losing my grip on the thought altogether and letting it slip away like a forgotten dream. But the ketamine kinda slowed it down and allowed me to explore it all a bit better. Still the rapid-fire changing realities and extreme visuals, but just a bit slower and more understandable I guess. I reached a point where I totally gave in to the positive forces and allowed them to pull me into their world, even letting me ask questions and providing answers. No interference at all.
I've always felt (and even told others) that if there is a god, we as humans could not possibly grasp it in its entirety, just as ants on an anthill on the sidewalk could never look up at a human and understand the complexities of our emotions and experiences, our capabilities and our understanding of the world. An ant's brain power is so entirely inferior to a human's that it's bizarre to even think about how different we are. And so it is with a human on earth looking up at god and trying to understand it all, let alone trying to explain it to others....can't happen, not possible, we're too inferior...but the deemster takes our brains to a dramatically expanded state and allows us to see what the human mind is really capable of doing, and it's incredible, to say the least.
So anyway, when I was pulled into this state of total positivity & curiosity, I became very calm, and began to ask questions. I was told "of course there's a god, or gods, of course there's more to the universe than the human brain can comprehend, you really think this is all possible just because of a Big Bang and evolution?!? and yes, we really do see everything, all the time. We are everywhere and we do not judge harshly, we understand, and we forgive" When I asked if there was an afterlife, it laughed a bit and said something like "again, of course...you really think we would give you all of this LIFE and then just switch you off when you die? We're not that cruel! There's much more than just this life on earth, but it is, however, very important that you live a good life, keep your body healthy, try with all your might to avoid anything that will have a negative impact on yourself, others, or the world...and also, cut out all those other drugs, they are not helping you to achieve anything, the DMT will allow you to contact us, but you'll never even come close with anything else, so if it's addictive and going to hurt your body, don't waste your time." And lastly, and I've actually read this elsewhere today in descriptions of other peoples' experiences...for some reason I had a powerful feeling that the forces were indeed Christian in nature...not in a religious sense necessarily, but more in the "Jesus did indeed walk the pathway of god" type of thing. and they said there have been many many (possibly millions) of Jesus types that have come and gone, and are still here...but no humans ever wrote a bible about the other ones, they had varying degrees of recognition and acclaim, and also varying degrees of "staying on the pathway" for lack of better words. They said I was supposed to be one that walks the pathway, but I've done a lot of damage with the drugs I've done. They didn't say it was too late for me or anything like that, but it did seem as tho I was being told I am on an incorrect pathway right now, and I need to shape up and sharpen myself.
I'm sorry for the ramble, but I felt that it was worth mentioning and sharing. I don't intend to over-analyze it too much, despite the profound nature of of it...But I do intend to begin living my life in the "light of god" so to speak. I do not want to question the existence anymore, I feel very confident that what I experienced was real, whether it was actually god(s) talking to me or my own mind blown so far open that I was able to understand it all. Obviously it's very hard to explain and my words fall so very short of proving my point, because everything else that was happening all around me was also providing insight and asnwers too, not just the words and questions.
Anyway, best of luck to everyone, much love and good vibes, and thanks for reading if you made it this far!
-RD
