Apparently I took 10 last night, I remember taking 9, 50mg ones so 500mg, not bad for a first try, I also had 5 cans of beer as well. I didn't really hallucinate I just felt very strange, like I was melting, I couldn't walk and I didn't want to move. I think I fell asleep at around 3am and I remember waking up at 5.30am not having a clue where I was, I needed the toilet incredibly badly. So I tried standing up out of bed and just remember feeling very very heavy and disorientated, somehow I managed to go downstairs to the toilet in complete darkness, I don't remember going back to bed though, I do however remember having very very vivid dreams after this, like it was snowing and this character I invented to write a book, Bernard was showing me around the world. This seemed to go on for about a month or two, even though in reality it was only maybe 4 hours max, I woke up at 10 11 and 12, like I had set alarms for and each time the dreams got weaker. There is a definite hole in my memory though between about 2.30 and 5.30, I don't actually know if I was asleep or not, or just lying there totally out of it. I blacked out once on alcohol, (I am a fairly heavy drinker, needless to say it took about 12 beers, half a bottle of tequila, vodka shots, vodka jelly and white wine, plus dropping a fence panel on my head).
It was just all so bizarre, before sleep and after 5.30 it's like I wasn't connected to the world at all.
But I'm disappointed because I didn't hallucinate like most people claim, I think I heard voices but I'm not sure. I hallucinate regularly anyway without drugs or drink, mostly auditory but I get things in the corner of my vision, it used to be more vivid when I was younger though. I also suffer from sleep paralysis regularly, though I quite enjoy it when others are terrified. Interestingly I don't get them at all if I have any amount alcohol.
I was fine today though, a little spaced out maybe, but no more than if I've been drinking a lot, mouth is still really dry. I also felt very calm today, without doing any of my regular fidgeting which is usually nose twitching, blinking rapidly and nervous cough. I expect that's because I suffer hay fever quite badly and do have rhinitis that I don't take medication for, and quite likely undiagnosed asthma, so taking that level of antihistamine probably stopped any irritation from dust or pets or people.
Apart from the memory blank, I thought it was quite a nice feeling, I think if I try again I'll not drink any alcohol, maybe then I'll hallucinate. In many ways the numbness I had was similar to dxm, though on dxm my entire world melts and flips to being upside down, like the floor is the ceiling, which is a bit nauseating.
I've taking 150mg tonight just for relaxation and I feel very creamy.