I didnt think i ever had panic attacks anymore but i went from listening to music at 60 bpm walking 1 step per second to blasting rift raft my reflexes became like a cheeta and i felt like a animal all thought left i reflexly went and chugging milk till i vomited despite having not taken anything in 16 hours i dont know why i did this it just felt like i should no matter how irrational and i felt no pain then i was trying to relax in my room but a male was in the makeupvideo i wss wstching and he was making a taping noise and driving me crazy so i kept saying shutup shup up and quickly tried to fknd a new video with one female talking very slowly making eye contact. Also i felt very dirty so i changed my outfit for no rational reason i just put them on twelve hours ago and felt the need to breath into my blanket and to keep off all the lights.
It felt like if he didnt shutup it be unbearable and i closed my door
It felt like if he didnt shutup it be unbearable and i closed my door