Hi there,
first of all : I`m from Germany, so my first language isnt`t English. My English skills a far from perfect, so I want to apologize in advance. I try my best while having dict.cc on the side, but still there a going to be a lot of mistakes.
I write my diary in an English forum for several reasons: English community are obviously bigger, so the feedback is going to be more intense, at least I hope so. Secondly its great for improving my skills and a nice little "brain-workout". I kindly invite you to correct me, if you recognize wrong grammatical patterns.
After some research I decided to take frequent low dosages of LSD. Its either going to be a "1 Day-on, 2 Days-off" or a "1 Month-on, 1 Month-off" schedule, depending on how I feel during the first week or two, and of course how fast I get used to it.
The product I`ll use is a research chemical called 1P-LSD. I red that its against the rules to tell you my source, but sure you know where to get it.
Who am I and why I`m doing it ?
(going to keep this as short as possible)
My name is Tony (not my real name) and I`m 21 years old. My experience with drugs is the same as all young guys with a healthy dose ( or too much ) of curiosity have.
Did some shrooms, few times speed, 1 time coke, 1 time LSD, and smoked a bunch of weed for 6 months after finishing my school carrier.
After that period I kinda got a very negative opinion about taking drugs just for the sake of having a good time.
I had a lifechanging crash after my exams (don't want to bore you with details ) and fell into deep depression. Yes, I said the forbidden word. Depression. Well at least it seems very forbidden where I life.
Its almost like you become an exterior, socialwise. Even though its an illness like having a cold: There is just something wrong with your body and the way the chemicals work in your brain. It starts small, but if you ignore it, like most of us do at first, it gets worst and worst. Its like influenza that started as a cold.
But since its so social unacceptable to just call in school or at your work and tell them, that you have depression, it goes downhill pretty fast.
And again, like every other illness, you can take medication, you can consult a therapist, you can talk with you friends about it, but at the end, you have to work it out by yourself.
So I did a massive research. And I really mean massive. Like for 2 years. Watching videos and reading books about how the brain and the body works, what depression really is, what causes it, how to cure it and what to do when you fall back into it (biggest problem i.m.o).
And it helped, for most of my illness.
Problem is, after all the time of staying at home, not getting out of bed for weeks (!) and the big lack of challenges, my body is like in some kind of rusty state.
My vision is blurry, the voice is trapped, my posture is messed up bad, my thoughts are restless, the way I`m talking is kind of choppy.
I did my best to cure these problems, but it seems that I cant get over the edge. I feel that the last 2-3 % to become strong again are missing. But I am almost there.
So that's why I did some research again ....
Few years ago I had a discussion with a former friend about Steve Jobs. He said that some of his groundbreaking ideas came from psychedelics. And after my first trips it started to make sense to me. But I forgot about it.
Couple days ago I discovered an article about taking low dosages of LSD on a frequent base. It says that the hole silicon valley is on acid and almost every great entrepreneur takes it. I was simply on fire. And after watching "Limitless" for the 10th or so time, I decided to give it a try.
So as soon as my order arrives (either today or in 1-2 days) I`ll publish a post about my experience as detailed as possible without getting boring. Every day.
Including dosages, the effects in my social, sport, sex and carrier part of my life, my nutrition and my supplementation.
Hope you enjoy !
Tony
first of all : I`m from Germany, so my first language isnt`t English. My English skills a far from perfect, so I want to apologize in advance. I try my best while having dict.cc on the side, but still there a going to be a lot of mistakes.
I write my diary in an English forum for several reasons: English community are obviously bigger, so the feedback is going to be more intense, at least I hope so. Secondly its great for improving my skills and a nice little "brain-workout". I kindly invite you to correct me, if you recognize wrong grammatical patterns.
After some research I decided to take frequent low dosages of LSD. Its either going to be a "1 Day-on, 2 Days-off" or a "1 Month-on, 1 Month-off" schedule, depending on how I feel during the first week or two, and of course how fast I get used to it.
The product I`ll use is a research chemical called 1P-LSD. I red that its against the rules to tell you my source, but sure you know where to get it.
Who am I and why I`m doing it ?
(going to keep this as short as possible)
My name is Tony (not my real name) and I`m 21 years old. My experience with drugs is the same as all young guys with a healthy dose ( or too much ) of curiosity have.
Did some shrooms, few times speed, 1 time coke, 1 time LSD, and smoked a bunch of weed for 6 months after finishing my school carrier.
After that period I kinda got a very negative opinion about taking drugs just for the sake of having a good time.
I had a lifechanging crash after my exams (don't want to bore you with details ) and fell into deep depression. Yes, I said the forbidden word. Depression. Well at least it seems very forbidden where I life.
Its almost like you become an exterior, socialwise. Even though its an illness like having a cold: There is just something wrong with your body and the way the chemicals work in your brain. It starts small, but if you ignore it, like most of us do at first, it gets worst and worst. Its like influenza that started as a cold.
But since its so social unacceptable to just call in school or at your work and tell them, that you have depression, it goes downhill pretty fast.
And again, like every other illness, you can take medication, you can consult a therapist, you can talk with you friends about it, but at the end, you have to work it out by yourself.
So I did a massive research. And I really mean massive. Like for 2 years. Watching videos and reading books about how the brain and the body works, what depression really is, what causes it, how to cure it and what to do when you fall back into it (biggest problem i.m.o).
And it helped, for most of my illness.
Problem is, after all the time of staying at home, not getting out of bed for weeks (!) and the big lack of challenges, my body is like in some kind of rusty state.
My vision is blurry, the voice is trapped, my posture is messed up bad, my thoughts are restless, the way I`m talking is kind of choppy.
I did my best to cure these problems, but it seems that I cant get over the edge. I feel that the last 2-3 % to become strong again are missing. But I am almost there.
So that's why I did some research again ....
Few years ago I had a discussion with a former friend about Steve Jobs. He said that some of his groundbreaking ideas came from psychedelics. And after my first trips it started to make sense to me. But I forgot about it.
Couple days ago I discovered an article about taking low dosages of LSD on a frequent base. It says that the hole silicon valley is on acid and almost every great entrepreneur takes it. I was simply on fire. And after watching "Limitless" for the 10th or so time, I decided to give it a try.
So as soon as my order arrives (either today or in 1-2 days) I`ll publish a post about my experience as detailed as possible without getting boring. Every day.
Including dosages, the effects in my social, sport, sex and carrier part of my life, my nutrition and my supplementation.
Hope you enjoy !
Tony
