titicaca2
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But every case has its tiny differences that could greatly affect the outcome. I believe that is the situation in my case, and why this thread is worthy of a few Bluelighter's hardened wisdom.
I have been using Heroin IV for about 7 months. My dose fluctuates wildly, although lately, with my "kick-or-be-doomed" date approaching, I have been trying to do no more than .4 a day. I have been able to space my shots out at least 12 hours, and usually 16-18. Last month I went 20 hours without feeling sick. Don't let that fool you, there have been times where I have done well over a gram in one day. (west coast powder/rock quite pure)
February 2nd, the love of my life returns to the state. He thinks I've been clean since a force stint in rehab in July. Other than those miserable 30 days, I've been using ever since.
I have suboxone, klonipin, and xanax. Prior to entering rehab, suboxone had "quit" working for me. It hardly took the edge off of my withdrawals. But, I did do that 30 days clean, and I have my dose down, and can go 20 hours before I am sick.
My issue: I am a full time student with a full time job. It will have to be "walking detox" or the closest thing to that as possible.
Yesterday: I did a .12 wake up at around noon. I took 2mg of xanax at 11am to combat the "fuck-its". By night time I was getting anxious and took 4mg of Klonipin. I took another 2mg of xanax and was at this point so loopy off the benzos I felt great, and stayed up until 5am on the internet. I had class at 9am, but when I awoke at 9:30, my alarm had been blaring since 7. I was SO amazingly sick. I put one 8mg strip under my tongue and snorted about 2mg of the orange pills in each nostril, for a grand total of 12mg of suboxone. 15 minutes later I started puking, I was sweating, shaking, all over a mess. The love of my life comes home at midnight. I had my mom bring me my "emergency" dope (.2 I had saved in case the suboxone didn't work) and about 45 minutes later I finally hit.
I'm thinking the benzos made me sleep too long, to where I had gotten TOO sick. The flavor of the strip had me puking (dejavu of local detox centers long ago...)
What is the best method to transition? I always thought it was a middle-of-the-night thing. Take a xanax to sleep through the first of the sickness, when you wake up you're ready to dose on the subs. Take subs, more benzos, (a zofran) and try to go back to sleep. That was intention this morning but it backfired horribly.
How can I keep my classes up and my job, while simultaneously rapidly getting on a suboxone taper to salvage my relationship?
I also have been taking 60mg morphine to try to get my dose down to a calculated level. I am at a loss. If I do my last shot at night, I will gradually get sick throuought the day, and may be tempted to take suboxone too early and go into precipitated withdrawals.
I'm an undercover junkie, I work in the medical field, full-time student for premed, all around golden girl... I'm getting desperate. If I can't kick, I've considered suicide, rapid detox under anesthesia, and an ibogaine center. Unfortunately I'm not rich.
I do have a very supportive mom, but if I don't kick soon, she will cut all ties with me.
I have been using Heroin IV for about 7 months. My dose fluctuates wildly, although lately, with my "kick-or-be-doomed" date approaching, I have been trying to do no more than .4 a day. I have been able to space my shots out at least 12 hours, and usually 16-18. Last month I went 20 hours without feeling sick. Don't let that fool you, there have been times where I have done well over a gram in one day. (west coast powder/rock quite pure)
February 2nd, the love of my life returns to the state. He thinks I've been clean since a force stint in rehab in July. Other than those miserable 30 days, I've been using ever since.
I have suboxone, klonipin, and xanax. Prior to entering rehab, suboxone had "quit" working for me. It hardly took the edge off of my withdrawals. But, I did do that 30 days clean, and I have my dose down, and can go 20 hours before I am sick.
My issue: I am a full time student with a full time job. It will have to be "walking detox" or the closest thing to that as possible.
Yesterday: I did a .12 wake up at around noon. I took 2mg of xanax at 11am to combat the "fuck-its". By night time I was getting anxious and took 4mg of Klonipin. I took another 2mg of xanax and was at this point so loopy off the benzos I felt great, and stayed up until 5am on the internet. I had class at 9am, but when I awoke at 9:30, my alarm had been blaring since 7. I was SO amazingly sick. I put one 8mg strip under my tongue and snorted about 2mg of the orange pills in each nostril, for a grand total of 12mg of suboxone. 15 minutes later I started puking, I was sweating, shaking, all over a mess. The love of my life comes home at midnight. I had my mom bring me my "emergency" dope (.2 I had saved in case the suboxone didn't work) and about 45 minutes later I finally hit.
I'm thinking the benzos made me sleep too long, to where I had gotten TOO sick. The flavor of the strip had me puking (dejavu of local detox centers long ago...)
What is the best method to transition? I always thought it was a middle-of-the-night thing. Take a xanax to sleep through the first of the sickness, when you wake up you're ready to dose on the subs. Take subs, more benzos, (a zofran) and try to go back to sleep. That was intention this morning but it backfired horribly.
How can I keep my classes up and my job, while simultaneously rapidly getting on a suboxone taper to salvage my relationship?
I also have been taking 60mg morphine to try to get my dose down to a calculated level. I am at a loss. If I do my last shot at night, I will gradually get sick throuought the day, and may be tempted to take suboxone too early and go into precipitated withdrawals.
I'm an undercover junkie, I work in the medical field, full-time student for premed, all around golden girl... I'm getting desperate. If I can't kick, I've considered suicide, rapid detox under anesthesia, and an ibogaine center. Unfortunately I'm not rich.
I do have a very supportive mom, but if I don't kick soon, she will cut all ties with me.
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