It's been a week since I took ecstasy and I've been feeling the effects of derealization every single day. Prior to that day, I've rolled every weekend for 4 weekends straight. Each time I rolled, I took one pill and on one of the those weekends I took half a pill. I went through the downing/hangover part of ecstasy and then everyday of this past week I felt as if it were a dream, and I really want it to stop. At first I was really scared that I had permanently damaged my brain but I did some research online and found out it was all in my head, but I'm still unclear about this. I've found posts and other people online that were in the same situation as me and most of solutions and advice people offered was that it will pass, be patient, don't focus on it, and live your life as normal. I've been trying to do this, and it helps but at one point of the day, I think about it too much and have a sort of "panic attack" and I go nuts for a sec.
My derealization at first was really scary and I felt REALLY unfamiliar with everything around me, but each day it got a little better as I felt less detatched from everything.
I have a couple of questions:
1. I know using ecstasy releases serotonin to give you that feeling but is the low level of serotonin related to my feeling of derealization?
2. Is derealization permanent? I've read many posts where people say they've had it for over 2 years or a long period of time. Reading those posts only make me worry even more and lose hope it trying so hard everyday to fight it off.
3. Is drug induced derealization different than natural derealization?
4. Has anyone is the same situation as me gotten better?
I just need some answers, thanks!
My derealization at first was really scary and I felt REALLY unfamiliar with everything around me, but each day it got a little better as I felt less detatched from everything.
I have a couple of questions:
1. I know using ecstasy releases serotonin to give you that feeling but is the low level of serotonin related to my feeling of derealization?
2. Is derealization permanent? I've read many posts where people say they've had it for over 2 years or a long period of time. Reading those posts only make me worry even more and lose hope it trying so hard everyday to fight it off.
3. Is drug induced derealization different than natural derealization?
4. Has anyone is the same situation as me gotten better?
I just need some answers, thanks!