I'm currently suffering from depersonalization and a little derealization. I got it from a bad shroom trip mixed with dabbing weeks after the trip. I am 2 months sober from cannabis. My symptoms are different form others but here they are :
1. I sometimes feel like i am another soul in my body
2. Where I live is pretty nice and when I drive around and see the communities and the mall , it feels like it could be a movie its so nice ( happens less often now)
3. I have really good long term memory ( i can remember events from years ago , even small ones and fee like i'm there) , but sometimes my short term memory is shitty ( always had this problem)
4. I am a scorpio and when I had heavy dr I could almost see through people and feel there intentions , I could read each persons personality and tell if they were a fake or they were cool , its really hard to explain ( I just felt so smart in every situation) and I was right about that person almost every time.
5. My dr and dp has helped me prioritize my life as far as school and tennis goes , and I just go through everyday on almost autopilot getting shit done ( Its weird and cool at the same time)
6. I still had emotions , I would still laugh at things and like things when I was heavily dp and dr ( most people say they dont which I find weird)
7. At first I liked it because It felt trippy and fun (Like a new perspective on life) and for the most part I had a deep appreciation for almost everything around me , i even went sugar free ( 1 and a half motnhs strong still) and am eating many fruits everyday.
8. I fixed family problems after the bad trip and when i was heavily dp and dr.
9. I can still focus on what people say and I have no adhd ( Heck I think I focus even better now that I hap dp) , I had that before I started tripping and havent had it since.
10. Its not as bad but symptoms from heavy dp still linger , The people one is strong but not as strng as it used to be.
So heres the thing ever since I got dp my grades have been so much better (Straight a's and b's) , my relationships with people are better ( Now a lot of people like me and I have a lot of friends) ( I was a weird ass kid with not a lot of confidence and I have a lot of confidence) , I dont judge anyone really and I am cool with pretty much everyone I meet , I handle situations at school and home better now , I used to care so much what people thought of me , with dp and dr I dont give shit , I rarely ever get tired and I have vivid dreams every night which I can remember when I wake up ( I can even remmeber the details of dreams months ago) , i connect with people a lot better. I also find history and world events very interesting.
But the thing is so many people hate this thing , and I do to sometimes because I dont know it really is kind of weird to have this intuitive ability almost like a higher consiousness , and I really want to get to the bottom of it.
Short summary : Dp and dr has helped my life TREMENDOUSLY , I have a theory it is a form of enlightenment and a spiritual journey on its on. I also have theories that experiences on dmt with other entities is that really an actual experience with them and its a form of communication with other worldy entities and possible travel to other dimensions ( Its a thought I feel should be strongly thought about and tested , But thats whole other thread I might talk about) I would love to experiment on that theory but I'm to young (16) to get stuck in that kind of a rabbit hole , cause if its true it may lead to craziness.
I'm torn on this subject and I dont know if I should try and stay strong on the recovery of dp and dr because of the benefits for me , or just stay in this "higher consioucness."( by just smoking pot again and dissolving the ego even more)
Any thoughts this is a lot to take in , all thoughts appreciated I love the opinions of fellow psychonauts.
1. I sometimes feel like i am another soul in my body
2. Where I live is pretty nice and when I drive around and see the communities and the mall , it feels like it could be a movie its so nice ( happens less often now)
3. I have really good long term memory ( i can remember events from years ago , even small ones and fee like i'm there) , but sometimes my short term memory is shitty ( always had this problem)
4. I am a scorpio and when I had heavy dr I could almost see through people and feel there intentions , I could read each persons personality and tell if they were a fake or they were cool , its really hard to explain ( I just felt so smart in every situation) and I was right about that person almost every time.
5. My dr and dp has helped me prioritize my life as far as school and tennis goes , and I just go through everyday on almost autopilot getting shit done ( Its weird and cool at the same time)
6. I still had emotions , I would still laugh at things and like things when I was heavily dp and dr ( most people say they dont which I find weird)
7. At first I liked it because It felt trippy and fun (Like a new perspective on life) and for the most part I had a deep appreciation for almost everything around me , i even went sugar free ( 1 and a half motnhs strong still) and am eating many fruits everyday.
8. I fixed family problems after the bad trip and when i was heavily dp and dr.
9. I can still focus on what people say and I have no adhd ( Heck I think I focus even better now that I hap dp) , I had that before I started tripping and havent had it since.
10. Its not as bad but symptoms from heavy dp still linger , The people one is strong but not as strng as it used to be.
So heres the thing ever since I got dp my grades have been so much better (Straight a's and b's) , my relationships with people are better ( Now a lot of people like me and I have a lot of friends) ( I was a weird ass kid with not a lot of confidence and I have a lot of confidence) , I dont judge anyone really and I am cool with pretty much everyone I meet , I handle situations at school and home better now , I used to care so much what people thought of me , with dp and dr I dont give shit , I rarely ever get tired and I have vivid dreams every night which I can remember when I wake up ( I can even remmeber the details of dreams months ago) , i connect with people a lot better. I also find history and world events very interesting.
But the thing is so many people hate this thing , and I do to sometimes because I dont know it really is kind of weird to have this intuitive ability almost like a higher consiousness , and I really want to get to the bottom of it.
Short summary : Dp and dr has helped my life TREMENDOUSLY , I have a theory it is a form of enlightenment and a spiritual journey on its on. I also have theories that experiences on dmt with other entities is that really an actual experience with them and its a form of communication with other worldy entities and possible travel to other dimensions ( Its a thought I feel should be strongly thought about and tested , But thats whole other thread I might talk about) I would love to experiment on that theory but I'm to young (16) to get stuck in that kind of a rabbit hole , cause if its true it may lead to craziness.
I'm torn on this subject and I dont know if I should try and stay strong on the recovery of dp and dr because of the benefits for me , or just stay in this "higher consioucness."( by just smoking pot again and dissolving the ego even more)
Any thoughts this is a lot to take in , all thoughts appreciated I love the opinions of fellow psychonauts.