solidsnake_91
Greenlighter
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- May 30, 2010
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Last night I had tried ecstasy (MDMA) for the first time. To give a little history about myself, I have been doing drugs since I was 15 and have been a recovering opiate addict. Recently I have been very depressed with my life. I know that my brain is producing little amounts of serotonin. I called my contact and he hooked me up with a "triple stacked" ecstasy pill. To get to the point, The trip was not as I was hoping to be. I felt the side effects of the drug (jaw clenching, increase in body temperature, involuntary eye jiggling) but the euphoria was not intense to me and I was more depressed than anything. I knew that the substance I took was ecstasy, but I felt lonely and and uncomfortable. I did make the mistake of tripping by myself for the first hour, but I went to my best friend's house and the euphoria was still not that great. Is there any explanation for this? I am 100% sure that I took an ecstasy pill, but the euphoria was almost a dysphoria. However, the next day I felt mellow and more at ease with myself and to others. I've been reading a lot of trip reports on MDMA but it seems like people put the drug on a throne when it was not satisfying for me. Can anyone explain this?