Over the summer, I was at a music festival where I tried MDMA for the first time. The first night, a friend who was familiar with MDMA made me a bomb that he said was 0.2. He was already rolling, and it turned out to have been more like 0.45. No-one told me about the come up, so after about half an hour I started to feel really strange, like I was getting really distant from the world and all of my senses were pretty dull. I actually went back to my tent to die at one point I felt so bad. After about 10 minutes I came up. There was none of the euphoria everyone describes, I was full on pinging. I spent half an hour listening to my self giggling, starting hallucinating, and said all kinds of crazy things about my sex life that I regretted in the morning.
The second night I wanted to try it again to try and experience the euphoria. I took one bomb that was about 0.2. When it didn't hit after a couple of hours, I took another bomb that was about the same size, maybe a little smaller. I came up once, which was far better than the first time, but then about 10 minutes later I started coming up again and it was super intense. Everyone kept asking if I was okay, and the noise of them speaking was too intense. I don't remember much after that point for the next three or four hours. I wasn't unconscious, in fact apparently I went about doing snow angels in the grass, singing to myself, stroking peoples hair and breasts, and rubbing my face on my sleeping bag repeatedly. When I came back into awareness, I was still high as fuck, but walking around the festival site with my friends. There was police and security everywhere, and I was pretty scared.
For the first few weeks after doing MDMA I thought it was the best thing ever, and just wanted to do more of it. Now that I'm a few months on, my overwhelming memory is of my heart pounding, my hands shaking, and my teeth chattering. I sort of want to try it again, to feel the euphoria, but every time I think about it I feel a little bit nauseous.
Any advice?
The second night I wanted to try it again to try and experience the euphoria. I took one bomb that was about 0.2. When it didn't hit after a couple of hours, I took another bomb that was about the same size, maybe a little smaller. I came up once, which was far better than the first time, but then about 10 minutes later I started coming up again and it was super intense. Everyone kept asking if I was okay, and the noise of them speaking was too intense. I don't remember much after that point for the next three or four hours. I wasn't unconscious, in fact apparently I went about doing snow angels in the grass, singing to myself, stroking peoples hair and breasts, and rubbing my face on my sleeping bag repeatedly. When I came back into awareness, I was still high as fuck, but walking around the festival site with my friends. There was police and security everywhere, and I was pretty scared.
For the first few weeks after doing MDMA I thought it was the best thing ever, and just wanted to do more of it. Now that I'm a few months on, my overwhelming memory is of my heart pounding, my hands shaking, and my teeth chattering. I sort of want to try it again, to feel the euphoria, but every time I think about it I feel a little bit nauseous.
Any advice?
