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Creating Positive Change vs. If Nothing Changes Then Nothing Changes..

caseface99 said:
^^ Beautifully put Eveleivibe! :)
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+1 I think your a real poet evel:)


Alright for tonight get all laundry done
clean closet out and box up all old clothing for good will
if still motivated then begin to organize paperwork from the paper chase
and research proper professional for next phase.
 
Thank you. That's lovely of you to say.
I've been writting poetry since I was little. A classroom assistant bought me a book to write my poetry in. But I found out she died. Why is it everyone seems to frigging die?



Yes I am sitting on a cold, hard rock,
Tears flowing down my face as you sit n mock,
With the painful stab of every word,
You say, tramping on me like a herd

You break my heart,
Into me, a thousand at a time stabs in sharpest dart
The goodness within me breaks n fall apart
Some please pick up my scattered soul
Before it is cast into the deepest, darkest, black hole

Trapping me, with your haze,
Seduced, Oh I am gone n in a daze.
You cast upon my soul, in such a rage,
Forgever yours, NOT - I will free myself from your cage

25/10/2013
 
motherofearth said:
I actually applied for some jobs today. I mean, I'm not sick yet, so it isn't like I'm dogging it out. But still, this is more than I've done in weeks.

I had to skip my workout w/ my friends this morning as my blood sugar was all over the place. I'm hoping it is just the withdrawals I've been continually throwing myself into throughout the last few weeks (my blood sugar always goes high while in w/d and I usually overcompensate w/ my insulin correction - nonsense diabetes talk). All will be well if when I get home from the library, in the evening, I get myself to run up this hill by my house. I really need to stick to the exercise I've planned more than anything else, cos I don't have much else planned to help me through my w/d's.
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Glad to see you're really sticking with making changes <3 I really hope you stick with it you deserve it <3. I really need to start exercising 8(. Love you moeBB <3

neversickanymore said:
+1 I think your a real poet evel:)


Alright for tonight get all laundry done
clean closet out and box up all old clothing for good will
if still motivated then begin to organize paperwork from the paper chase
and research proper professional for next phase.
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I can't stop cleaning! I might be one of those people who stays home all day and cleans non stop. The freedom of not having my to be mother in law here anymore is invigorating!!! AHH!

Eveleivibe said:
Thank you. That's lovely of you to say.
I've been writting poetry since I was little. A classroom assistant bought me a book to write my poetry in. But I found out she died. Why is it everyone seems to frigging die?



Yes I am sitting on a cold, hard rock,
Tears flowing down my face as you sit n mock,
With the painful stab of every word,
You say, tramping on me like a herd

You break my heart,
Into me, a thousand at a time stabs in sharpest dart
The goodness within me breaks n fall apart
Some please pick up my scattered soul
Before it is cast into the deepest, darkest, black hole

Trapping me, with your haze,
Seduced, Oh I am gone n in a daze.
You cast upon my soul, in such a rage,
Forgever yours, NOT - I will free myself from your cage

25/10/2013
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Very nice Eve <3 We have a Words section you might enjoy. Not to say you can't share it here also ;), but you might enjoy a gander at others words as well.

I've been cleaning non stop for the past 3 days. It's fantastic! I'm feeling more energized and accomplished than I have in years I believe! =D
 
That's ace. Glad you're feeling positive n yea you do feel good after a good ol' spring clean xxx
 
I am doing..


Finish the book I'm working on
Get a new pair of telemark skis
Collect all the paperwork I need and make an appointment to rid myself of this burden
Acquire a new degree
Write that book about dreams with my son
Join a gym now that the weather is getting unconducive to working out outside
I want to start drinking the eight glasses of water I am supposed to a day
Consume 1 gram of semi sweetened chocolate a day
more paper chasing
end relationship
point canon
enjoy an evening with some special things for me
unthaw spaghetti sauce
work on book with son
catch up on a bill
and research proper professional for next phase
 
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Finish reading The Plague by Camus(I've been reading this book in chunks, I get addicted for a few days, then set it down for a month... I need to stop that second part lol)
Get a job, apply to at least 3 places a day this week
Save money so I can get new tires before it snows
Get back into making music on Logic Pro

Hopefully the list will grow once I start getting things done.
 
I read The Stranger by Camus and remember liking it quite a bit.. I will have to make a run at The Plague.
 
neversickanymore said:
I read The Stranger by Camus and remember liking it quite a bit.. I will have to make a run at The Plague.
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I loved The Stranger and so far The Plague is even better, my favorite thing by Camus isn't a novel though, it's The Myth of Sisyphus... that essay changed my life.
 
Thanks I will look into that as well.. have you ever tried Dead Souls by Gogol.. I started to think of the books I have on my list right now.. It is really small at the moment.. I was sick for over five years and the amount that I read was really ridiculous.. but as I was thinking of what I still wanted to read I thought of how much I have read and then I was thinking of the most amazing lit I read in that time and this book came up in my mind as a candidate.
 
neversickanymore said:
Thanks I will look into that as well.. have you ever tried Dead Souls by Gogol.. I started to think of the books I have on my list right now.. It is really small at the moment.. I was sick for over five years and the amount that I read was really ridiculous.. but as I was thinking of what I still wanted to read I thought of how much I have read and then I was thinking of the most amazing lit I read in that time and this book came up in my mind as a candidate.
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I haven't read Dead Souls, though I'll look into it now. I actually read surprisingly little considering how much I love literature and philosophy.
 
I am doing..


Finish the book I'm working on
Get a new pair of telemark skis
Collect all the paperwork I need and make an appointment to rid myself of this burden
Acquire a new degree
Write that book about dreams with my son
Join a gym now that the weather is getting unconducive to working out outside
I want to start drinking the eight glasses of water I am supposed to a day
Consume 1 gram of semi sweetened chocolate a day
more paper chasing
end relationship
point canon
enjoy an evening with some special things for me
unthaw spaghetti sauce
work on book with son
catch up on a bill
and research proper professional for next phase
go clothes shopping
Identify some places in this town where quality women like to hang out.
spend some time at these places
 
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^Nice ;)

Went to psych appt. Asked her about my BF (who doesn't have insurance) they charge an initial evaluation fee of $160 and then another $160 for when you see the psych for meds. She told me she would help him out and do the evaluation herself and do her appt on the same day so that he can start tapering off etiz. So happy!!! :D I love her!!
 
^That's great news star!

I have finished all my rush jobs today so I am able to take more from my coworker. I am really happy to have passed it before my deadline. Hardwork really pays.
 
I am doing..


Finish the book I'm working on
Get a new pair of telemark skis
Collect all the paperwork I need and make an appointment to rid myself of this burden
Acquire a new degree
Write that book about dreams with my son
Join a gym now that the weather is getting unconducive to working out outside
I want to start drinking the eight glasses of water I am supposed to a day
Consume 1 gram of semi sweetened chocolate a day
more paper chasing
end relationship
point canon
enjoy an evening with some special things for me
unthaw spaghetti sauce
work on book with son
catch up on a bill
and research proper professional for next phase
go clothes shopping
go shoe shopping
Identify some places in this town where quality women like to hang out.
spend some time at these places
Laundry
 
For today:

Stay sober
Laundry/Clean Room
Skype with GirlFriend
AfterCare Group (where I went to rehab)
Buy Groceries on the way home
Study Math
 
^^I gotta start making a list.



Maya said:
^That's great news star!

I have finished all my rush jobs today so I am able to take more from my coworker. I am really happy to have passed it before my deadline. Hardwork really pays.
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They called him back today and scheduled the appt. for Nov. 11th. I'm surprised it's so soon, I had to wait like a month and a half to be seen. I'm so happy he's going to be treated and get on a taper plan that works. I love my psychiatrist, she actually does care and is helping him (and me) out so much with this! =D

My list (will be added to):

Disinfect mother in laws side of the house (she moved out)
Clean bathrooms
Vacuum house
Shock pool
Fix kitchen sink
Fold laundry
clean closet
Vacuum pool
Clean pool filter
Add chlorine to chlorine feed
Clean concrete around pool
Mow lawn front and back (I usually only do the front or back :p not both)
Take foster dog for shots on Saturday
Go grocery and item shopping (still compiling list)
Buy a weeks worth of groceries for BF and I -- only 2 days pre-made, 5 other days I need to pick out food for fresh dinners
Request money for food for mother in laws dog
Fix main bathrooms toilet on/off valve
Fix guest rooms toilet plunger
Spackle main bathroom
Paint main bathroom
Hang mirror in main bathroom
Put new bumper on car

Hm... Tomorrow ;).
 
^should see if you have a restore as there will most likely be allot of things you need there cheap star;)


I am doing..


Finish the book I'm working on
Get a new pair of telemark skis
Collect all the paperwork I need and make an appointment to rid myself of this burden
Acquire a new degree
Write that book about dreams with my son
Join a gym now that the weather is getting unconducive to working out outside
I want to start drinking the eight glasses of water I am supposed to a day
Consume 1 gram of semi sweetened chocolate a day
more paper chasing
end relationship
point canon
enjoy an evening with some special things for me
unthaw spaghetti sauce
work on book with son
catch up on a bill
and research proper professional for next phase
go clothes shopping
go shoe shopping
Identify some places in this town where quality women like to hang out.
spend some time at these places
Laundry
clean and organize room and closet
go through old clothes and bag up for goodwill
bring clothes to goodwill
bring record player to the man thats needs it
phone call to the government (make snack for huge wait.. yawn)
get back on gov healthcare website.
 
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^Oh wow nice! There are a couple in my town. How did I not know about them!? How awesome =D. Thanks <3!
 
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