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Bluelighter
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Hello all,
I've not touched cocaine in 7 years but lately cannot stop thinking about it. I stopped due to having some rather bad experiences and also that I was on the verge of developing a full blown addiction.
At the moment I have just got myself fully back to fitness after a previous long illness so am in good shape. I have a severe headache disorder which I take an SNRI drug for (Duloxetine/Cymbalta) along with an anticonvulsant drug (Lamotrigine), both at very high doses. Even though I know the potential dangers of mixing SNRI and cocaine I am on the verge of convincing myself to get a gram or two and try it.
I know this is my former self-destructive personality trying to make itself heard, having been suppressed for many years. It has awoken and is hungry. Rationally it is a terrible idea to do cocaine (MDMA) but part of me says fuck it let's feel that amazing feeling again. I'm pretty sure I have the addict gene.
What drugs do you guys remember like a past love?
I've not touched cocaine in 7 years but lately cannot stop thinking about it. I stopped due to having some rather bad experiences and also that I was on the verge of developing a full blown addiction.
At the moment I have just got myself fully back to fitness after a previous long illness so am in good shape. I have a severe headache disorder which I take an SNRI drug for (Duloxetine/Cymbalta) along with an anticonvulsant drug (Lamotrigine), both at very high doses. Even though I know the potential dangers of mixing SNRI and cocaine I am on the verge of convincing myself to get a gram or two and try it.
I know this is my former self-destructive personality trying to make itself heard, having been suppressed for many years. It has awoken and is hungry. Rationally it is a terrible idea to do cocaine (MDMA) but part of me says fuck it let's feel that amazing feeling again. I'm pretty sure I have the addict gene.
What drugs do you guys remember like a past love?
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