OLD.GREGGGGG
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 4, 2012
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Hello, so long story short. Ive used drugs on and off since i was 16/17yrs old. Im 29 now. This feb was my first documents opiate overdose, though i suspect ive overdosed on benzos and alcohol before but thats a different story. Since the 25th of February i have been clean, minus 2 uses, spread out by days/weeks. I was always safe in procuring my drugs and safe about my use in general( as safe as u can be with heroin/whatever the fuck else im doing). But, lately ive been more and more curious about venturing to more and more dangerous places. I grew up in a small almost entirely white neighborhood( no, im not racist). But since the OD i moved to South jersey ( from Upstate NY). Now that im here, im 45 minutes from Kensington philly and even closer to Camden And Salem NJ. Ive ventured to all 3 locations and i havent searched for drugs( not that i wasnt offered) and on the 1 occasion in Philly i accepted. But, Has anyone else felt this way? nearly died and wanted to put yourself back in jeopardy? Tonight i get paid for doing farm work, and ive already lined up the bus route and times to get into philly and back( if i want to). just lookin for insight/advice. Just seems like life is a game and i want harder levels, lol.